We lost some TRUE fierceness!

Man today is Christmas and I sadly guess Eartha Kitt was just too much fierceness for this world because heaven called her back! This sucks so much, I LOVED HER! She was one of the best people ever. She was the best catwoman EVER I mean she did the cat purrr, you cant just make that up talent like that comes NATURALLY!!!!!

She was on the list of the many fab women I want to be like. She will be truly missed!!

Do People Ever Think?

So kiddies here I am sitting on my couch and im talking online to some guy online who has managed to find me... Get this his name is Maxx.well lol (yeah right) Im always skeptial of random dudes with good names. Im also skeptial of random good looking guys who think that they have a dominate side and "know" what they are doing lol.

The guy im wasting like 20 minutes on right now says he lives in the uk, but his profile says that he lives in georgia ( do you see the confusion) then it says that he is 32 and that's it. Like there is no other information to give. So you all know that im sitting around asking questions. I never understand why people always want a freaking phone number to talk on the phone about NOTHING. I have had too many times where RANDOM people call me about nothing lol. Ive had times where peoples girlfriends have called and there wasnt any reason for them to do so. Im too freakin old to have some birds cluck on my phone about why's ur number in my mans phone when the real question should be asked to your man! (Think about it) I pay my own damn phone bill so no one has the right to ask me who's numbers are whos, shit until u pay the bill then stay the hell out of mine lol.

I personally cant stand talking on the phone, (unless i know you) only because what is so great about the phone getting hot and you chainging ears every few minutes to here someone go on and on about nothing. If somone really wants to get to know you then they should know you the way you want them to know you. I personally dont mind getting to know someone throuhg emails or text instead of a phone right away. There are lots of people who are like that, its more of being safe, and its more of trying to see who really wants to know you.

I also never really undersand how these specail people seem to be drawn to me, there is another guy who is really really good looking, I mean he is too sexy.. I think that he is a little border line full of him self and that is something that I will never deal with. I've had a bad experence with it. Anyway, this guy think that he can get anyone to do what he wants, how he wants and when he wants. People who know me knows that dosent work espcially with me bacause you can never dominate a person with a very dominate personality. I just doesent work. Now what was wrong with him is that he was in the mood and he has buttons that are very easy to push, I mean like way beyond easy. When this guy gets in the mood its very easy to get him hard and to get him to damn near bust. But he really gets off on when someone is talking to him on the phone. I guess there are girls who must call him all the time and tell him how much they want him or whatever.

Im different, my buttons arent easy to press, we all know that. lol Granted that guy knows what he's doing , he can turn you on like no other, like you just want to hand your panties over with a little bow on it lol. I think he knows that he has that gift. Maybe its something in the eyes hell idk, all I know is that it works, but it will just get you off. Me being the ever dominate person will never just sub over to anyone, no body part of mine belongs to anyone but me. I was under the impression I had made that clear to him but i guess when you really want sex then you dont listen.

That will work for them girls who dont have a clue but shit not for me. I could tell that the guy was really worked up, so i told him that i know deep down some where in the back of his mind he must have a memory of some silly girl begging himjust begging him to bust that nut already. I know its true, because he seems like the type that will have some girl do that. SoI kept at it and kept repeating my self over and over and over and he finlly said brb. I really think he got someother silly girl to call him unless he went to take care of that.

btw I teach classes on how to get men off with no issues lol

That is all........:)

Samples in music!

So today, I was reading one of my favorite blogs and they had a youtube video of kanye west that shows all or almost all of the songs that he's done has had samples of like EVERYTHING that hes listen to when he was younger.

So I watched the WHOLE thing (ten minutes of my life i cant get back) and the person was showing that not only did he sample (which means take SOME OR A PIECE) of the song he takes the WHOLE damn thing! Now I read the comments that people were leaving and MOST like 99% of them were saying that he is a genus and that hes wonderful and all that shit. Now for the NORMAL people out there we all know that taking samples is OK, but that doesn't mean that you have a REAL talent! Its one thing to take some of the song and make it your own with YOUR own words and whatever or try to reinvent the sound of something but its a whole other thing to take the song that made someone famous and claim that its yours and that its something you pulled out of the sky. Some one also said that hes full of him self which we all know is sooo true!

I watched the whole video and i saw that prince was one of the artists who he's sampled from, now we all know that prince for damn sure wants his money for any song that he lets people sample. I'm saying that all he does is take the entire song and either slows it down or speeds it up and then rants over it and calls it a hit. Then he has the nerve to bitch and moan about how he didn't get this award or that award and yell at the public when we tell him to sit the hell down already!

****Note to kanye: DAMNIT WE ARE TIRED OF YOU SHUT THE HELL UP AND SIT THE FUCK DOWN!****

That is all..........:)

How do they keep finding me pt2

Ok so right I managed to logg on to myspace today because I put up my random nail art that im trying to do and I manage to get a friend request and who do you think it is...... Its my "brothers" OTHER baby momma! Im really starting to think how do they keep finding me? I mean I really dont mind because they are all cute kids but its not like I can offer them anything lol.

Im really happy to see all those kids are good and what not but it makes me sad because my brother is such a freaking bum. I really wonder how it is that he's most of learned it from his father. I often wonder if they have spoken to his father because he IS all these kids grandfather and I would hope that he would want to see all of them!

pfft I really dont know!!!

That is all.........:)

*******UPDATE***************
So after having a conversation with the mother, I got to see photos of my neice. She is so out of the box ( just like me yay) lol She seems like really cool person. I was telling her mother that i only remember meeting her way back when her daughter was little and I also told her that I dont talk to any of those people so there is butso much information that i could tell her and what not. but she did tell me so much! Seems like my "sister" had her wedding (which i WASNT) invited to at her fathers house. Mind you thats only like 2 hours away from me! Ive lived in the same place for years and all of the sudden noo one knows where i am (whatever) I personaly was offended! but I digress lol. Im really happy that I got to see photos of all the kids because its good to know that some folks in this family are ok-ish lol

that is all.....:)

How do they find me?

I always want to know how people find me? Some times I'm just online doing nothing major and boom a I'm will pop up and I'm like who is this. Well the other day one pops up and I'm like who the hell is this because I didn't recognize the name. It turned out to be my brother's baby momma well, she is the mom of 2 of this 3 kids. Lucky for me I saw the photos of these two kids and I faintly remember my other niece. I'm sorry to say that my brother is a freaking ass just like his father. I kept telling the girl that I was sorry because I didn't realize he was such a bad father to his kids. She told me however that she finally got him on the back child support that he owed. I was shocked that he owed so much. I mean she was so happy that she finally got him, I asked her who the hell was helping him pay that because she claimed that she found him in a bar and served him with the papers. Its funny though because you learn how to take care of your kids from your parents so if one your parents didn't really take care of you or had some way in your life and they fucked up in some way boom there you go. His father is no different, (if you all don't know me and my brothers and sisters ALL have the same father and different mothers) he didn't really support his kids like that. I really think he favored my sister and my step sister, I really don't know. but anyway I think its so sad that my brother is such a bad parent lol but shit he got what he deserved!

Now the second part of this post! I met this guy online who damn near stalked me ( god i know) in to talking to him. Now see he's not that bad he has a head on his shoulders but shit he says that hes a VIRGIN! (lol I know right, me too lol) So we keep talking and he really is all over the place with his stuff. Ive pegged him out to be a closet sub who wants to be a dom but also needs to be a sub. I swear its confusing. But dammit all if he wasn't like "oh, I want you to be my first" lol I'm like wtf how the hell do they find me because its like I don't boast my sexual prowls, I just offer everyone information to make THEIR sex lives better because if people i know are having great sex then lord knows I'm happy for them! But damnit if it doesn't get some fools sprung on what they could get lol i have no idea lol....

That is all.......... :)

Re-makes, re-makes and yes you guessed it MORE REMAKES!

WHY??????? I don't get it, why the hell should they re make this classic? I mean as soon as I heard about the last dragon ( the black folks version of this film) I knew, Damn it I just knew that they were going to freaking remake this movie. I just hope that it wasn't true! But damn it they did it.

Who the hell is going to play Bruce lee?? I mean (RIP) Brandon Lee was still alive then of course they would use him but Idk if he really would want to try to play his father. Its still the fact that they decided to remake this. Oh don't worry because I'm NOT the only one who feels like: just leave the classics alone! there are so many fans who are like why just why, there are somethings we can forgive (the chipmunks, robocop the TV series things like that) but damn it they have gone tooo far with this one. I swear idk who they are going to get to do this movie. I feel like they should just leave THIS ONE alone!

As you can see I'm so at a loss for words on this i got stuck! lol

That is all................ :)

The Training Program....

For all of those who have read the infamous list that was posed on here, this is the training program that goes before it!
This is for guys that quite aren't right at the list and have to do just a pinch more work at it..

1. Thawed: This means the guy is primed to enter the program, just out of the freezer!

2.Tenderized: This means that the guy has made it out of the freezer and is ready to be taught all the things you want him to learn.

3. Seasoned: This means he has the base knowledge of what you want him to know, now its time to groom him to be out in public.

4. Marinated: This means he knows what he needs to know and can be out in public, now he needs to know how to act around other people in public.

5. Sauteed: He knows how to act in public and has knowledge at this stage he needs to know how to act around friends and maybe, maybe family.

6. Glazed: This means he has made it out of the training program and maybe ready to advance to the Diago Academy!!!!

Work it out!!!...... That is all........... :)

White boys that could get it!! Images!!

Now you ALL know that I'm not in to white guys, so on the rare occasion that I see one that strikes my fancy that means that he must be FREAKING out of this world! Lets look at the two so far I like on the list!

Brandon Lee He is number one because of the crow, lol I really liked that movie.. If you haven't seen it go see it its great!

Jeff Hardy he is number two because I read their book.. He's a very artistic type which is cool. Its really hard to find cool people like that.

That is all until I find more..... :)

And on the sadder part of life......

As you all know, I always have some sort of problem that can kind of get fixed or whatever over time. Well this time lord only knows how I'm going to get out of this one... I have now a year to get out of my house! Lord only know how ima pull this out of my ass. What happened for those of you who don't know is that my mom is trying to move on with her life (lol no nothing horrible happened) but her and her boyfriend want to move or whatever, like hell if ima go with them so I have to try to figure out what I'm going to do. Now its not like I don't think of what I'm going to do, its just a lot of things going on at one time. We fall in to a recession, my job looses its mind, I decide not to stay in a relationship that was going no where fast... I feel like if I were to keep things up I still would end up in this situation. What kills me the most is that I've gone through life as to where I've had to pay for everything that's mine, If I had more stable money, I would just rent out my bedroom for 500.00 a month and I would pay the rest. Its not like i can ask my "father" for help. I did before and that didn't go well at all. I wish that I had those type of parents who were more than willing to help ALL of their kids. My "father" has a few kids and he helps them but since we don't have that "father/daughter" relationship I'm the odd man out. Its really taking a tole on me. Ive been really thinking about moving to another state where I can kind of start over where no one knows me lol but I cant since I have no money lol. I'd be damned if I moved down south because the jobs down there are HORRIBLE but the cost of living is soooo low. If I had the money I would suck it up and just live down there or move to the mid west where its easier to live, but I fell like I would have to give up my life. I just feel like I'm running out of options because I don't know what to do. When you have no options and you don't know what's left, what do you do?????

That is all........:

Attack of the 80's movies 2

Lordie,lordie they are coming out with "The last dragon" again, its a REMAKE!! (shriek in horror) Samual L Jackson is going to play sho-nuff. Now for those of you who haven't seen it in all of is 80's glory, its about a inner city kid. Who lives up town (Harlem for those who don't know) His parents own "Daddy Green's Pizza" Slogan: "Just directa yo feetza to Daddy Green's Pizza" Yes I have this movie on DVD lol. Their son Leeroy (whos nick name by his students is bruceleeroy) is trying to find the "the glow". His master who is some old little Chinese man told him about the glow of knowing what danger is going to come or something like that with out knowing.

Anyway, His little brother is obsessed with vanity's character (Laura) who is the vj of this show called seventh heaven or seven heaven. That boy was in her cloud crowd.... lol. The songs were HORRID! The funny thing is that Laura when she was becoming more and more attracted to leeroy her outfits would become more Asian themed!

This movie was really all over the place, but......... I digress I'm still going to try to see it when the new one comes out lol yay

That is all :)........

Tv time!! whoooooooo

Guess what's on tv!!!! Atlantic city hookers!!!! O lord my favorite, and we are up to the hooker who has mad rules! She is like: 1. no kissing 2. no kissing on the neck 3. no fucking in the ass 4. no sucking on the chest 5. no fingers in the coach 6 20 minute bj's with a condom. Now there are a few points where I do agree with her on, (# 3,5 and 6) if I was a hooker. Now I do understand that she is a clean hooker and guys want a clean girl because lord only knows who has what out there.

This by far is my favorite one of these hooker ones because it reminds me of the time's I've spent in Atlantic city. The drunk time in the hotel rooms with friends laughing at the tv! Seeing hookers for the first time on the stroll. Lord it was all fun!!!!

I know it was short, but I was having a moment lol

That is all..... :)

Dinner and a Show!

Every one who knows me knows that when I go out with them we NORMALLY get dinner and a show. What this means is that, we all go grab a bite and then walk it off some which way to wherever our feet take us! Yesterday was nooo different! Me and my broham (keizer) were out in the street. I went to get him from the gym down town because it was just such a nice nite.



So a show starts even before I meet up with him. Some guy who is bike ridding in the street just stops short, I guess he was thinking that the traffic was going to start fast so he just slams on the break, anyway he flips over his bike and lands in the street! Lucky for him the traffic is going in a different direction! So some guy starts to help the guy up and he gets him out of the street!



I wander around, and pick keizer from the gym and we tra-la-la down to the sea port or near it, we are walking and talking like how we normally do. Right about now we are a little peckish, so are are looking for a dune Reade (or how ever you spell it). We are whores for them lol like we were really walking looking for one. Sadly around there all of them close early lol. We were coming up from the two near the sea port that I thought would be open, and we see this guy and girl walking, the girl you can tell went out after work with her boyfriend or whoever the hell he was were walking up the street. It was sooo apparent that she was FUCKED UP, like she was soo drunk he had to put her back in her shoes lol.



We finally get away from them and we go up another street and boom, we see this girl walking down the street and shes crying! So I'm like "oh lawd, dinner and a show", keizer is like what are you talking about. I tell him "look shes crying, and there goes her boyfriend" lol there was a guy walking down the street after her. By then we have given up on the search for a duane Reade that is open. We find however like a cafe that is still open. Finally we get snacks!!! Thank you Jesus!!!



We leave the cafe and we're happy like gummy bears (private joke) and we start to walk up the street headed towards the train station. We are talking and whatnot and there are some people standing out side of some crappy side bar, Keizer tells me that one of guys out side is cute, but I'm not paying attention so I'm like what?!?! We laugh about that and then as we are walking to the corner I glance at this guy who is on the phone. At first glance, I though he was someone else, so I try to look away but I'm getting stuck looking at him (and caught) I try to rip my gaze away from him but hes too cute, I take a quick glance at keizer to say like "oh lordy hes cute" So he finally like locks eye with me and asks us where Williams street is. Now we really don't know where that is and we're trying to help him so I suggest that he talk to the bouncer at that dive like two stores down cause we don't know where that place is. He walks away and I'm like to keizer "oh my god yes, he was toooo cute!" I know I'm having a HUGE bird moment, and I was trying to get it all out but you have to understand he was sooo fly and mixed! (he ranks on the men's list as xavier, if you don't know then look back in the blog to see what I'm talking about!) He was black-uh-neeeese! (lol, private joke #2)

As you know we didn't let that go with out a major conversation lol, so we walk all the way down and make it to the E-Train aka the homeless hotel. We walk in to the train station and I'm like look out, because a bum was laying down at the bottom of the stairs and keizer is startled because he didn't see the foot, he doesn't trip but was like oh my god I thought it was just a foot and that they didn't clean up the rest lol. So that caused a huge amount of giggles from me. We get to the train and are waiting for it to finally show up. After about a few a E train finally shows up and of course its the homeless hotel!! Every other car had a homeless person in it, and to our surprise there is a midget in one car and he is dressed up like a little skeleton, once again I get the giggles lol. We plop down and are on the train so yet another fly-ish man gets on the train, I'm convinced that hes of the gay or maybe a stripper. (He reminds me of a friend who is a stripper) He's just sitting there minding his own business, and this man sits down next to him and falls asleep, not only does he fall out but he falls out on to the stripper man lol. So I'm sitting there trying not to laugh out loud, but I'm crying because its too funny lol.

Me and keizer are there talking to each other in text because we both have on head phones and are laughing so much. The guy finally passes out and falls on the stripper and he wakes him up and then falls out and starts to sleep on this lady who is like wake up.

I swear, it never fails, any time you go out with me you get dinner and a show!!!!! Maybe 2!!

That is all..... :)

TV.......Because Ive started yelling back at it!!

Right now I'm watching inside American jail. Its mostly where they take folks who have lost their damn minds like from cops and whatnot this is where they go like the in between. Well anyway they had some woman who reminds me of a hooker that I saw on HBO (this special about Atlantic city hookers) I always wondered what happened to her. She had all these rules, its like "damn it you a hooker and you have rules?!?!?!? YOU ARE A HOOKER, hookers don't have rules" That's the point of the hooker, she (supposedly) does EVERYTHING your wife, girlfriend, fuck buddy doesn't do!

She had so many freakin rules it was like she was a high money girlfriend!! Like she said you couldn't stick your fingers in anywhere, you couldn't lick her anywhere, I could understand the condom with the bj because lord only knows who has what but anything after that besides sex, like anything after that is free reign lol. She was even in a room with someone and boom she broke out all these rules and the old man looked like he was going to have a heart attack! lol I never laughed that hard in my life!!!! lol

But all these drunk people just yell and yell at everything, the camera, the cops, the nurse, everyone lol. Its too funny!

What else did I watch??? I managed to catch the semi last part of making the band with that fool diddy, I swear he has enough ego for like a million corner jockeys (if you don't know what that is, just go to your local corner at about 11:30 in the morning and look for just random guys standing there, that's them!) he was bitchen about how he doesn't want Aubrey (or however you spell it) to stay in the group. I mean god you could just tell where that was headed. I mean if you really think about it hes not going to get rid of the few that could sing. Idk because he is all over the place and on the rare occasion that he really has a sensible thought it goes right out the window.

That is all....... for now......... :)

Guess what time it is again kiddies.... Yes its TV time!!!

As you know i channel surf to combat the time that I sit around on line lol. I managed to catch that train wreck of I want to work for Diddy(pfft no). As most reality shows go one winner is chosen, but in pure diddy fashion this greedy fool took two. The last two were one guy who really deserved the job because he kinda came up like how diddy did and the other person was this lady who looked horrid like she was worn out before her time lol. They both were going at it trying to out do each other like normally people would do, I kind of figured that he would chose the two of them because he has like fifty million people who work for him on that damn show blabbing about how "wonderful" and "amazing" it is to work for someone who I think is so full of him self.

I also managed to catch the end of I love money, we all knew that "Hoopz" was going to win, I mean really, like she had anything better to do. The rest of them have been whoring it up on TV for the longest. I mean I know that vh1 really diggs hard to find people who have no problem with being on TV for way more than 15 minutes. I really think that each show they do they spend about 5 of their 15 minutes, so that comes down to what like three shows? OK, ok, lets take a really good look at it. New York (Tiffany Pollard) was on flavor of love 1, then came back on flavor of love 2, and then she had I love new york and then I love new york 2, thennn New York goes to Hollywood. So she already has 25 minutes of fame... Where did she get the extra ten minutes??? Next we have Real (Armand) and Chance (real name unknown) they were on I love new york then they came back on I love new york 2 then they are going to have their own show called...(Real Chance at Love) Lord only knows what that's going to look like lol. Who else, oh we have pumpkin ( i forgot what her real name is) she was on flavor of love 1 then she was on charm school, then she was on i love money.

You see how they choose characters and whore them out over and over and over again... I really want to know who is giving out all of these 15 minute passes??? I mean really there is but so much left for half of these people to do! There is but so many times you can try to win money if you don't have anything that they can sell off of you. I really think that vh1 sits around with a huge book or at least two and one says guys and the other one says girls and they just snatch up about 10 of each photo throw them up in to the air and what ever order it falls to on the floor is whats the show that they are going to have next!!

I swear I should work for vh1!!

That is all..... :)

Relationships......Why do we put our selves though them???

For those of you who know me, know about my relationships.. Some people know ALL about then and others know enough of what I tell them. Most people know about the "relationship" that I was in last with someone who really isn't right for me. I know, I know people say that about some relationships but this one is all over the place.

The guy I was with, cared so much about how other people felt about the relationship. I never understand why people care so much of how other people think that their relationship should go. Now don't get me wrong, we BOTH had and have issue, I deal and have dealt with my issues MY OWN way. Never the less I do go in to relationships trusting the person I'm going to be with. Now the other person went in to this relationship with NO TRUST at all. I know that people go though things and have baggage and what ever but still try to give everyone a chance.

This person just takes out the baggage on the next person; I know I have my issues but I write stuff down and am able to let things go faster than other people. I figure why keep it bottled up inside, its not doing anything but making you unhappy and whatnot lol. We both hand our stumbles in the relationship. Honestly there was two major ones and one stupid one, but if you ask him it was three major ones lol, me on the other hand I'm like ehh life happens, no one is perfect, everyone is human.

I think the more you try to be perfect in a relationship, the harder it is for you to act like you have common sense lol. I mean just be you, be the real you. They claim that whoever is supposed to love you the way that you are but sometimes I think that's total shit lol. Id rather be single for a while because I am strong by my self lol, and what I mean by that (because you have to break it down slowly for some people) is I think I'd rather casually date someone then have a full on relationship.

I have lots of friends that I talk to, most of the time its easier for me to talk to them on line since its hard for us to see each other. However this doesn't mean that I'm going to stop knowing them for any ones sake. I will also never live any relationship for anyone, its not fair, for you to be invited in to my world is a honor. That's something that the people who know me hold in very high regard! If you are my friend you are my friend for life.. Now Ive also had the misfortune to meet people and have gone against my better judgement and have been some what friends with them and its bitten me in the ass! Ive learned from that, Ive learned to become a better person and to tell my inner thoughts to my most inner circle which is only 5 people! You really learn what to do and how to grow as a person from knowing if that something is too good to be true then for the most part it probably is!!

That is all..... :)

Lordy, My job, please take it!

Those of you who know me personally, know where I work. For those who don't know, lol (sorry I don't give it out lol) Well anyway, I use to work like 40 ish hours a week. Recently I started to work 1 day a week, at first I didn't have a reason at all, no I didn't ask to do so the manager just "decided" to have me work like that. I later find out that its because I don't show that I want to be there. It rolls around to review time and I'm like " Tell me any time that a customer has said that they couldn't come up to me and get any information about what ever." Which I know I'm right about. Now don't get me wrong, I'm not saying that I'm the perfect person at that job. NO one is, BUT I'm also not the one who will suck up to move up in some place that that's all they want from the people who work there.



Since I've been there for so long, all the people who know me in there like really know me ask me about different things dealing with work. I'm always ready to help them but I don't make a show about it. That's something I've voiced a lot, like why put on a huge show about how you help people. I'm more of a one on one person , so when I help people they get what they need and if we don't have it then I will give them all of what they need to find it. Apparently that's not enough, I must also act a damn fool towards customers! I don't understand that, I mean why, I've done a lot of shopping, and I know that people don't like to be bothered!



I mean shit let them shop! 99% of the people who come to the store know what the fuck they want! Most of the kids just want to stuff their asses in to super skinny jeans (I'm talking about the boys) Complain about how 50.00 is too much to pay for jeans because it will eat in to their window shopping from their burger king check! I know this because I listen to what people talk about when they are sticking their hands in to the middle of the pile of jeans or tee shirts to get the size that's right on top. Lord its such a waste of time. lol

The only way that any one moves up in there is to be friends with someone who is already high up and hang with them in the oddest of places, to get a high and drunk with them so they can "talk good" about you because you are their friend. How sad is that? Ive even stated that, to some people, how can you work some place and then just because you are bff with someone high up you get to move up with no experience.

Who suffers? I tell you who, the people who work hard have to deal with people who don't know anything at all and still have to help them out to look better! Haaaa lol

That is all.... :)

Do you want to be like Diddy??.. Hell NO I don't!

You would think that, this post would be apart of TV time... no, it just ran across my mind. Awhile ago I was talking to someone while this mess was in the background. Then I really started to think about that. WHO the hell really wants to be like him, because he "claims" that he never gets a day off and that hes on the top of everything.

First off, damn it hold up, You NEVER get a day off...... If I was you motherfucker, I would never work, that would mean that I was doing something RIGHT. That would also mean that I had great people around me who were also doing something right. Now this fool has this show on vh1 where he finds some poor soul who should work for him and never get a day off. Maybe never get paid. I mean its all to well known that he doesn't pay his people or artists.

Some of the "people" that he had working for him are on the show blathering about how they love to work for him and how they own their own business and all that shit. They know damn well that he works them like they are runaway slaves and they don't get paid shit.

I mean think about it how much worth can you put on experience when all you do is work and have nothing to show for it. So what, you have your own business, but did you really get to live your life out good because you worked like there was no tomorrow just to get there??

Look at Diddy's life, he "has everything" yet he said one time a while back "When I get a day off I don't know what to do, I have no friends and I really have no direction in what to do on a day off" If he really was the Mogul that he claims to be, he would have friends and have so many days off and things to do to live his life because he would have good people to leave his business dealings up to. I feel if I were in a position like that then I would have good people around me to handle my business, I would trust them to know what they are doing because they would have helped me with the business. But shit, not having a day off are you fucking serious lol I would never work lol

That is all.... :) for now lol

80's Movies... Strike back!

So I was reading on line that they are going to make yet another 80's TV show in to a movie. They are going to make that Yogi bear cartoon in to a movie. Now, I really cant stand that "special" and I use the term loosely bear. He his this crackish addiction to picnic baskets.

I doubt that anyone has really took a good look at some of these cartoons, and how so may of them way back when have gay undertones. Its really awesome though! Since I'm an original 80's kid, I sometimes think about how a lot of cartoons and things had so many double meanings lol. Well with Yogi, what they plan on doing is making it live action like they did with the chipmunks. ( never saw that) Now I just wonder why they want to go do that, did Yogi bear really have a following like that? I know the chipmunks did, lord knows that Transformers did (one of my favorites) I remember when they really did make He-Man in to a movie, it was god awful lol but they still made it.

They also made this other god awful movie, called Howard the duck, that movie was a little on the iffy side because it involved a little duck on lady action lol. I swear things they show us when we are young!

And what would you know it I'm channel flipping and boom whats on??? The last dragon!!!! (another favorite!) Bruce Leroy!! I love it all, today turned out to be a good day lol.

Its so funny when you get older and you watch all these bad movies from when you were younger, and you see all the stuff you thought was soo great lol, like you can see the lines holding up the people obvious stunt people, things in the background lol BIG hair lol. Its all over the place. Its so funny because you know that all the people in the movie, have tried to disown any knowledge that they have ever been in ANY movie. This movie has original 80's fashion all over the place, the stretch pants, the gold lamaye (spelling) the horror! All the mixed Asians (i guess) in this movie. Oh lord its all over the place lol.

I really wonder why people keep bringing back all the 80's movies and re-doing them for the kids today. There is a reason why all the people who have starred in the movies would look at you and go, "I have no idea what you are talking about" lol

I don't understand though why kids today need to bring that horrid fashion back, because when we did it we knew that it would pass, but oh lord!! The kids nowa days oh lord are bringing it back, and in a no where near fashionable way! I have seen so many kids wear the same things in DIFFERENT COLORS and swear that they are original. Ive seen kids come in to the store where I work, with the same outfit on in different colors and sizes and its like ok, I KNOW you all went to the same place and "bought" (and i use that term very VERY loosely) the same outfit and thought it would be really ORIGINAL to wear it all at the same time.

Its so rare to see kids that look original, and I mean original ORIGINAL. Even the kids who you know that take their parents pills to get high ALL look alike. The "trendy" ( i use that term sooo loosely) all look alike, why do all these kids look alike???? Now me, (I'm 27) I don't look like everyone else, I also don't look like I'm 27 (thank god) but I have the common sense to use fashion in my own way to define my own style. I just wonder why people don't try to do that instead of looking like everyone else lol.... confusion!!!

That is all... :)

Once again its TV Time!

Here I am once again watching the debacle that is the Tyra show, today's subject is open marriages. Some times I wonder why, just why Tyra is so dense. Its hard to believe that anyone could be so lost on a subject. There is a couple on the stage who have a open marriage who are OK with what they do. I personally don't mind what people do everyone has their own way of doing things.

Tyra on the other hand has issues with being a instigator!! I swear has she not learned anything from Jenny Jones?? Making people do and say things that they don't want to do on national TV will come back and bite you on the ass. Sadly on the Jenny Jones show, if you didn't know a guest (a guy) told another guest (another guy) that he was in love with him and what not and that he wanted to be with him. On the show he was like okish with him but he also was being egged on by jenny and the show and what ever so anyway they later find out that the guy killed the other guy because he felt embarrassed by him confessing his love and what ever for him.

Why don't some talk show hosts think that maybe, I should just let them either talk on stage and stay out of it orrr take a non bias opinion to what the situation is. I mean its like how do you not know what the story is going to be about, you have producers and what ever read and TELL you what the story is about before you go to air with it, so how can you sit there and tell the people that you need a answer now and stuff when they are on NATIONAL television... These poor people are like a dear in head lights!

That is all... :)

Food Network

Most of the time when I'm home, I watch the food network. Paula Dean is my FAVORITE she looks like Mrs. Clause. her husband Michel looks JUST like Santa Clause, we know what he does on his days off lol anyway right now Semi home made with Sandra Lee is on. I cant stand this show. She is such a house wife that you would see in the suburbs. Who the hell has time to throw a cocktail party for "people" in this day and age like EVERY DAY?

If you've ever watched this show, you see her with WHAT EVER outfit she has on in the "kitchen" of which I'm sure is NOT her house; and the background of the kitchen matches whatever she has on. All of that is impossible. Imagine if you were to do that to your kitchen all the time, you would loose your mind! She makes all this stuff which looks OK by the way but I'm saying, she always makes some sort of cocktail. Like she drinks everyday..

I know this post is all over the place but, I'm just ranting lol, she is such a house wife, if i did what she did I would hurt my self lol

That is all.. :)

Random shit i see on line...

So, I frequent this site (http://youknowyoudeadazzwrong.com/) and it is made by this wonderful person named mo. (don't get it wrong I'm giving praise!!) She as well as other people find photos of people online who are in the club doing god only knows what and the camera people snapping photos of it.

Now when I do go to clubs, I take the time to dress like I have common sense as well as know what my limit is when I drink. (It also helps to have gay friends and people so you don't out out side looking like a damn fool) Anyway, there has been a trend of girls coming in to clubs acting a damn fool. I never understand why you don't think five steps ahead when you do things in a club. I mean really think about it, just because some guy who is maybe high or drunk off his ass is giving you attention because you and your girl started kissing? Do you really want to know that guy. I swear hes the one that will call you at like 2:56 in the morning to "talk" about nothing or to "just hear the sound of your voice" Yeah??! while he is jerking off AFTER coming from the club drunk dialing lol.

I mean ladies really think about it, you claim you want a quality guy but then boom you are interested in this fool who smells a little off and is following you around the club. I think i got a little off subject lol (was there really everyone in the first place lol) If you really know that when you go to the club, like if its a major club they WILL have camera people following you trying to take your photo. Then just take a NICE photo.. Don't try to show your ass (literally) show your draws, show off some horrible tattoo that you got in a spot to cover it up, flip the camera off ( I fucking hate that) do some shit that says "hi haters" who the hell hates you and why do WE care and WHY are YOU saying hi to them? You know I never understood that....

The point of what I'm really saying is that, just act like your momma is going to see the photo and act like you have some sense!

That is all.... :)

Akasha + Dark Phoenix's Men of Sexiness List!

This is a list that we came up with a long time ago. We use this list to categorize men that we see in the street, yes its mostly based on looks but its for fun for the most part. *Note the descriptions are only a reference! WE are only using this photos for a reference point, that doesn't mean that's the guy DESCRIPTION!!! If you get offended then its your own problem.*

Diago- This is the top guy. He is financially stable, he has his own condo. His physically fit and mentally stable. His penis size is compliant, and he knows how to work it. He can be seen around EVERY ONE ( this includes friends and family) He is currently being transported by a private jet, and if he wasn’t in the mood to use the jet, he would be driving a 2009 Jaguar. He is DEFINITELY not embarrassed to take the subway with you.

Maxwell - This is the guy who is right under the top. He is financially stable, he is on the waiting list for the condo that he has already paid for. He is physically fit and mentally stable. His penis size is compliant and he isn’t afraid to use new positions, some times in different places. He can be seen around EVERYONE (this includes family and friends) He is currently driving a 2008 Mustang, but he is not afraid to ride the subway with you.

Boris Kudjoe - This is the guy who is right under Maxwell. He is financially stable but he’s renting an apartment in the city for now. He physically fit and mentally stable. His penis size is compliant, but he’s a little timid about new positions and or places. He is almost a little routine. He can be seen around EVERYONE (this includes family and friends especially since he is starting to become comfortable around them) He is currently driving a new 2008 BMW, but he would be embarrassed to ride on the subway with you.

Michael Ealy - He is right under Boris Kudjoe. He is becoming financially stable, and he just finishing some debt consolidations that he is paying off. He is becoming physically fit, and he needs to be showed a routine because a kiss on the neck and just sticking his 9" in is NOT sex. He can be seen around by only close friends. Needs a little more work to meet the parents. He is currently driving a LEASED 2007 Hummer, and we had the coaching conversation about getting a new car. He’s working on it….. Hopefully for his sake.

Vin Diesel - This guy is right under Michael Elay. He is becoming financially stable, he just needs more movie contracts. He is very physically fit and can talk you out YOUR DRAWS!!! He is currently packing 8", and he doesn’t know how to work it. He does the whole stick in you with a really hard force, and makes it a really uncomfortable sex experience. Unfortunately that’s all he can do….. He can be seen around only particular friends. Needs a little more work to meet the parents. He is currently driving a 2006 Mercedes Benz, but he takes care of it. For his own safety.

Xavier (guy from the seven train)- this guy is right under Vin Diesel. He is on the athletic side, and he’s almost physically fit. Mental stability is almost there, like his not afraid to have a conversation with himself. He is packing beautifully with 12", but it comes to oral sex, he lacks control and experience. He also need to learn how to wear draws. He is almost financially stable, but he needs to learn to use credit wisely. He can be seen around only particular friends because he still a little shy. He needs a lot more work to meet the parents. He is currently driving a 2006 Land Rover.

Chris Brown - this guy is right under Xavier. He is on the athletic side, and he’s almost physically fit. Because of this, he is very arrogant and cocky. He thinks is gods gift. He’s takes forever to get ready. He is packing 10 x 7". All he likes to do is make videos of him jerking off which is NOT CUTE!!! He definitely know how to kiss, especially after he got his teeth fixed. He has a idea on how to become financially stable in a few years. He can be seen around only your close friends…. Cause you know he sexy and young minded. He is currently being driven around and taking public transportation.

Tahj Mowry - He is right under Chris Brown. He knows how to save his money, but he has no clue on how to become financially stable. He is still in college. He is very active in sports so you know his body is on the way to becoming fit. He is mentally stable. He is packing 8.5", but sadly he is lacking experience. He needs to be taught everything. Living on the Hawaiian Island has not made him comfortable using the subway but he’s definitely getting a car soon. You can bring him around only particular friends. He’s on the young minded side of thinking, which can be worked on if your willing to spend that kind of time. This guy has just finished the Academy of becoming grown and sexy.

Getting Packages!

So about last year, I got a new laptop for Christmas. I was never the less surprised because I asked and begged for one for the longest. (NO I'm not a kid lol but I couldn't afford one on my own) finally my mother got me one. Needless to say I was freaking happy. Mind you this is the end result. (Yes me being happy) My mom ordered the laptop from dell and the order processes and whatnot. They tell us that its going to ship from dell through DHL. (lord no)

Now I don't know if anyone ELSE has had issues with DHL but I know that around the holidays they really don't care WHO they hire vs the normal times. I don't know if anyone who reads this works for DHL but, hell I don't care, them fuckers are the worse!

FIRST they claimed that no one was home, which was a lie because I was off the few days that it was supposed to show up.
THEN they said that they left it with a neighbor. Now don't get me wrong, I kinda (VERY LITTLE) trust my neighbors around my apartment, only because I never really see the people right next to me, and the people across from me someone is usually home. Lucky for us, someone had to sign for the laptop because we had insurance on it. (needless to say by this point I'm so upset, because the ONE Christmas I get something I asked for and it "goes missing".
AFTER THAT we see on line that "someone" signed for it but we cant see who. It says one thing but we are like well the people around us didn't have it. So who has it....?

I will tell you who has it, the fucking driver stole it! Yes, he "signed" for it and took it because he figured we would get the money for it or whatever. HE DOES NOT KNOW ME OR MY MOTHER lol, so my mom is like "I don't understand how you cant find the driver when all this stuff is tracked and whatever and he has to come back to wherever you guys are. So how is that possible. " She threatened to stop the check on it and what not so they "amazingly" found him.

He finally comes back to my building like a few days later and is like "oh the people who had it opened it." Trust me when i said i was far from nice.

I WILL NEVER ORDER ANYTHING THAT HAS TO DEAL WITH DHL BECAUSE THEY ALL ARE A LITTLE ON THE SHADY SIDE!

If you work there then watch your pocket!

Tv Again!

So, here I am sitting on my couch, watching TV. For those of you who know me, I channel surf a lot. As it would happen I come across the Tyra show. (lord yes again!) Today was the top model cycle 10 reunion. What I really want to know is who the hell still watches her show?? The girls on top model look like "pretty" girls you see in the street. There isn't a striking thing about any of them. I mean way back when, like a few years ago she had some girls who were like "wow" but now..... lol.

What I'm really ranting about with this is Tyra her self, she has the ability to turn ANY story that someone is telling in to a story about her. I mean goddamn it let the people tell THEIR story!!!! One girl was considered to be "plus size" and she was like "oh i was the only girl to come in there and say that I'm plus size and blah blah blah" when she really is just a tall size 8.. (Wow, really plus size!) Anyway, the girl was trying to tell her non-story when Tyra (miss me, me, me, I, I, I) chimes in and says "Well when i was younger back in the day when I was a model, when I was 16 modeling for the runway in Paris for whoever I was a size six!"

The poor "model" (I use the term loosely) was on the stage and she just trailed off in her story lol. I don't even think she really was saying anything to begin with but shit let the girl her her fake fuckertry out. lol.

There are other times when I've caught the Tyra show and the story has been about something that she (Tyra) knows that she has had nothing to do with and she will some how turn it in to a her, me, me, me, I, I, I, story. Yesterday for instance, the story was about these stupid ass girls who go to bars and kiss for free drinks. ( I feel sorry for them, well.... not really) There were two dumb girls on stage who say that they are straight and only kiss to get something out of the guys at the bar. They claimed that they didn't really see the harm in doing it. So what does miss me, me, me, I,I, I, do?? She goes on and says: "Well when I was your age, I would never think to do anything like that, I mean when you get older like I am, you find better things to do. When you get older like I am and you don't let go of what you do you get desperate, but I'm not!" Some times I wish I could go to the Tyra show and slap her with a dildo right in the face and say "The story isn't about you, for once in your life take a deep breath and tell the faerie in your head that says that the world revolves around you to shut the hell up!"

There were other people on that show, like one girl who was a lezzie and who was obviously pissed off. I couldn't blame her. Her point in the story was that because stupid girls like the two on stage who do that in bars and what not make it so that when she goes out with her girlfriend, guys expect her to do the same thing and don't take her seriously. I really felt sorry for the girl, like I totally got where she was coming from. The two girls on the stage didn't get it at all and then here came Tyra... She missed the WHOLE point like she does all the time.

She tried to reword what this girl was saying so that it would sound like she came up with it all by her self and FAILED.

Tyra some advice:

1. Top model is a sham, them girls are good for one maybe two days worth of work and that's it.
2. YOU WILL NEVER BE OPRAH, SO STOP TRYING TO BE HER.
3. NO ONE CARES ABOUT YOUR DAY TIME EMMY, SO LET IT GO!
4. NO, DAMN IT ITS NOT ALL ABOUT YOU.
5. SIT THE HELL DOWN ALREADY, WE DONE, YOU DONE, TAKE THE LACE FRONT OFF AND LET IT RELAX!!!

That is all!! :)