Tv time...With a random chaser please!

Ohh kiddies, soo much tv has been watched by me on the rare times that i get to stay home and relax lol. So did you see the vma's.... Hmmfp! Is what i have to say, I mean did they just tell security to have the night off and go smoke a fattie or something? I mean stage hoppers galore lol Its sad though because Mr. Gay fish (southpark) decided to hop the stage and act like a ignant negro, and all of that drama over shadowed Janet Jackson's performance, which was off the hook by the way! They did a whole michael jackson montage which was really on point. But instead of everyone talking about that, they are all talking about how this fool decides to jump the stage during Taylor Swift's (who?) speech, he snatched the mic out of her hand and went on this raid or rant about how beyonce ( sit down) should have won what ever award that the poor girl just won. Beyonce however is looking at him and shacking her head like wtf and apparently it wasn't even important award, to the other chick it was though. Kanye (or however you spell it) brotha pull the fucking stick already!

Next stage hopper, lil' momma (......) You know that hard faced chick who came out with that song lip gloss (.............) that was her ONLY hit which put her on on the map, and don't get me wrong, she can rap but she is tooooo hard faced, or maybe her stylist just didn't love her (idk) So this brawed (spelled wrong but it stays) decides that she wants to hop on stage when jayz (the house husband) and alicia keys are preforming something, so they finish and she hoppes up on stage to pose with them, so jay z hopps in front of her and tries to block her out but she still standing there with her hard face! That show was a hot mess, and im glad that I didn't watch but go to at least catch Janet preform.

Let us touch a little bit on princess ri-ri, honey, sit down already, you cant sing YOU CANT SING its like a drowning cat its like a dying giraffe! (yes they make noise) YOU ARE NOT A ICON, no honey you aren't! You have no style, you are all over the place, what you are doing orr trying to do is what the girlies in japan have been doing for YEARS and they get it right; you don't! Go some place and sit down and keep quiet, ok?? ooh ps: Take that tranny from a past life beyonce with you already (sweetie become a house wife and keep quiet too) That is all for that!

Back to our program (that was a commercial) What else is going on?? Oh near my apartment, they have been doing construction on the back steps and idk when they are going to be finished so there is a gate there, lordie I have to go all the way around to get anywhere and lordie there are corner jockeys everywhere at night so I have to walk fast lol (corner jockey; noun,folks who's sole job is to stand at the corner and do NOTHING) Its hard enough that I worked runaway slave hours the other day and I cant wait to see my check lol (16 1/2 hours! in one day)

Halloween is coming up soo happy! I requested that day off lol cause i cant wait to go out lol I so want to go on vacation again, because work after a while gets a little tight lol. Lord only knows when that's going to happen lol but whatever lol.

That is all for now....... :)

Btw: I burninnnnn (lol private joke lol)

PPS: Today sept 15th 2009 is gay fish day on south park!

Work, Chile you know we aint free!

Why does everything stress everyone out? Some times I wonder if we must in force a rule where we slap stupid people?!?! But lord then my hand would hurt like hell all the time lol. Work has been stressing me out kinda but not majorly because its to the point where stupid people at work are making everyone want to rip their hair out lol. So many of us have been there for so long we all want to just jump ship and leave. They are like oh why don't you all stay because i promise its going to get better and we all know, because its bs its total bs to everyone. Its like we all aren't kids we are all adults we know how the shit works. Its no going to be a great thing :(

Everyone doesn't want to stay there and the job is becoming like a prison because we cant do this, we cant do this and its like well wouldn't you want your employees to be kinda happy or at least happyish idk. Maybe that's asking too much.

Ive been thinking also, about how I'd rather be single FOR THE REST OF MY NATURAL LIFE than have to deal with another emotionally damaged person, this one girl I'm BARELY talking to has so much fucking issues its not healthy, i swear these folks are drawn to me! Idk how it happens, all I do is say hi like after they say hi to me and it all goes down hill from there! They get mad at me for not sharing my ENTIRE life story with them (which I'm not going to do if I'm not comfortable) right off the bat, and then tell me their whole life story and all their issues. (people tend to tell me their whole life story no matter what I'm doing) Its not like I don't believe in taking it slow because i don't want to rush in to anything lord knows Ive learned about that lol. You would expect someone who is young or very young minded to act so obsessed with someone, but damn it she is the same age as me, and i also know one who is 18 and she seems to have common sense! You see how all over the place that is lol.

Personal Effing-Space!

I know everyone, you are tired of fucking people all up in your personal space! So today i come home and go to the supermarket, even though its hot like balls outside, I still decide to go to the market to pick somethings up. So I get in line and this old freaking man decides he wants to stand right behind me,RIGHT BEHIND ME!!!!! Its not like he doesn't see my bight ass standing there!

I'm trying to put my stuff on the belt for the lady to ring up, and he decides that I must be in the way, so he puts his two freaking cans of beans on the thing in front of me and tries to push me out of the way so that he can get them before they go in front of this little old lady's bread. I'm like PERSONAL FUCKING SPACE! Then he has the fucking nerve to cough, COUGH WITH OUT COVERING HIS FUCKING MOUTH!

I don't understand how personal space has become a thing of the past or out of fashion. I mean if I don't know you, then shit back the fuck up!

I feel better lol that is all..............for now :)

Random-ness Come to me?!?!

So yeah, finally get the chance to babble on here! Where do I begin? Well if you didn't know I went to the wendy williams show! Soo much fun, people saw me on tv, (grandma, madre) other folks who knew. Got some free stuff in there, the ab rocket,which antiono sabato jr was selling. Haven't seen the infomercial with him in it yet. Also these things called hair bumps (I think) well they were free too. Me and keizer had so much fun, I saw it he was on camera a lot!! He's famous lol, it was just like a big dance party. Oh, did I mention we went on vacation? Oh loridie it was sooooooooooooo much fun, everything is free, only thing you have to do is pay for your drinks, which is like ok well I got to pay for something, but its not even expensive at all!

Duty free is the places to go when you want to get the liquor cheap! lol god willing when my bday comes around..I can get to go on one too. So great, it was nice to see the water on the boat just going out on the sea, it looked like you could just walk from one place to the other on the water. That would have been so great too. Ever seen drunk white folks? On the ship there are soooo many lol they get pissy drunk and want to sing country and what not, had one lady "sing" respect, lol she just kept screaming the song sooo we all know she could barely cary a tune, who lordie another girl "sang" killing me softly and oh god she butchered it. I swear if lauren hill wasn't crazy that would have drove her nuts. The folks who worked on the cruse however were soo nice (shout out to lima) she was so awesome, cause we had a zillion questions, now we know for next time lol.

Whooo, Nassau Bahamas is hot like you wouldn't believe its like freaking Africa hot, its like the sun is like haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa on you, all you do is sweat! You have to go out there damn near naked! But the water is soooooo beautiful, its so blue, and lordie the water in Miami is green just like new york lol. Miami is africa hot as well, and its humid so its like you don't get a break even when the sun goes down. Its so much fun in south beach because there are gay's o'plenty out side mostly men lol there is a sprinkle of women. The hotel we were in was a old apt building which i kinda fell in love with, it was a studio/"one" bedroom apt, which was huge, and it had two queen sized beds in it along with a wonderful dining room table in it as well as a huge freaking flat screen tv. It took us a while to figure out what the channels were, btw on the ship most of the channels are in Spanish?!?!!? and there really isn't anything majorly on tv. The pool on the freakin ship is 7 feet deep so its like you are up to yo neck and what not in the pool.

We visited the urban in south beach, whooo the standards in there are like .................................. hmmm lol notice the blank spot, very questionable lol Most stores in south beach open late by new york standards which is very odd. We went to the Mc Donald's wanted some sweet tea expected the mega huge cup like they give us here also because it was so freaking hot, but nooo, we got the regular size which was okish, but the sweet tea had mad ice lol.. Btw birds are everywhere lol I really had soo much fun, I cant wait to do it all again!

Did you manage to catch "bad habits" video, if not check that out! So freaking sexy, I swear if i knew Maxwell, I would hug him and be like um yeah! lol

Soo what else? So more random-mess, ex boyfriend saw me, I think that he thought we were Friends, wanted a hug i was like you high? lol Then a girl I was talking to a girl and didn't hear from her for a freaking month and some change and the other day my phone was like brrrrrring and shes like hey how are you? Im like hooo look who it is. I swear they come out the wood work. Oh we were on the train coming home yesterday and this guy gets on and starts ranting about the most random shit ever. We are like wtf?? who is he talking to like hes going on about someone doesn't respect him or something or doesn't like him cause he works for a living or something it was like...dinner and a show like we always get lol
I miss those lol.

That is all.............for now :)

Do not go gentle into that good night.

So as everyone... EVERYONE knows by now Michael Jackson has died... I know sad right, its like wow really its not like how everyone had made peace with Farrah dying because she was at the end of the road and she fought like hell! Like Dylan Thomas said: "Do not go gentle into that good night." Ive always loved that quote, fight like hell don't give up, and she never did. Michael however, was sick but he also kinda did it to him self, he had so many different meds he took all at one time and he just had so many different issues.. He had such a messed-up childhood, but its like he never at least I don't think spoke to anyone who could really help him enough to put them demons to bed. I think he carried all of that drama with him and after a while he may have just pushed that aside and figured if he were to act like a child again it would all go away. I do also believe that way in the back of his mind he did have a adult side as to where he thought being whit children was ok. Ive always thought that some where deep down inside he knew what he was doing, because lets not get it wrong, he was a smart man; he did make stupid decisions just like everyone else in life does, but I do think that he knew what he was doing with those kids. Maybe he thought what he was doing was ok, idk, im not sure I really don't know, maybe if i was studying psychology i could offer a better answer, but its just something i saw in the few times I've gotten to see just interviews and had a good look and what his body language was saying versus what he was saying out loud.

Some times people don't realize that their body language tells way more than what they are saying, so its like they are telling you one thing and their body language is telling you something different lol. Ive said this before when looking at photos of Chris brown and princess riri, their mess was always off!

June had just been the month of people dying, can you believe it it was freaking 6 people! I really believe that we are getting closer to the end only because just people keep leaving.

June was also the month were it kept raining! Its like lordie why? July has started and its been wonderful so far lol. I'm watching the memorial for Michael Jackson, and there are alot of people talking about mostly random stuff, and some people singing and its coming out kinda bad!

I'm also excited about vacation (yay poopoo) I'm gong to take sooo many photos lol, I promise to put them up all over the place lol, Its getting kinda close because we are leaving in like three weeks lol. I'm also a little excited about my "girlfriend" lol see, I got her sprung and I didn't even do anything to her... lol (yet) See she lives in Texas, which is like Africa hot lol, I mean I keep asking her about the weather and what not, even though she is like its hot lol. I try to make her understand that like in new york, its like a different kinda hot, because there are trees and a freaking breeze and it gets kinda humid, unlike down south where its soooooo hot. There isn't any like break in the heat, its like if you go outside you better bring your fat man rag (lol) a extra towel, a bottle of water, a fan, shades a whole mess of shit lol. I remember once I went to visit family (ugh) and i was watching the news and they were like there is a heat advisory out because a little girl fell and got third degree burns from the street, i was like see I'm one step closer to hell here! lol

Lordie there is mild drama at work, see there are two couples at work and everyone, i mean EVERYONE knows about them, lol jokes on them lol. And its like ok we know we don't care, but shit don't make it that obvious lol because its like yah we know but you don't want EVERY one to know lol. Its like to each is own, but don't put ur shit up in photos and come in on your days off, or wear the same shit, or wait around and lie to everyone cause its to the point where its getting sooooooooo sad. lol Its not like I'm saying no you cant date anyone, I'm not saying that at all I'm just saying be smart with your shit! Cause lord knows that place is HIGH SCHOOL LOL :p

That's all for now..........maybe :)

Sextra: 10 Tips To Get Your Fellatio Game Right

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How to control your gag reflex

Here's a little useful info i came across :)

Step 1First, understand that your gag reflex is a reflex action. find out where your gag reflexes start. Starting from the tip of the tongue, to where you first begin to gag, is how far it stretches. Once you can put a finger on that, (no pun intended) you can begin learning how to control it.

Step 2The gag reflex is a contraction at the back of your throat which stops objects entering the throat except as part of normal swallowing. But, you can re train your reflexes, so that your mate will obtain the utmost pleasure. sometimes you may have the feeling of loss of control and panic. Don't panic.. Remember it's training your reflex and tongue to do something different then normally.

Step 3Here's how to make it so you never upset your partner by gagging again; You will slightly enhance something you already do everyday! Brush your tongue right where your gag begins. People you will gag. It will be nasty,not for long, but just think of the many compliments you will get! Spend about 10 seconds brushing that area (and gagging), and call it a night.
Repeat the process over the next few nights in the exact same spot. You'll notice you gag less each time you do it.
Increase the brushing area. Once you can touch your toothbrush on that spot without gagging, it's time to move the toothbrush further back. Try brushing increasing the brushing behind where your gag used to begin. This is your new starting point. Repeat the process as you did in the first spot.
Continue moving the brush further. Each time you move the toothbrush back, your gag has been desensitized in the previous spot. Keep moving it further and further back until you've reached the furthest visual point of your tongue.
Be persistent. This whole process should take approximately a month to complete. When it's all said and done, you should be able to take in more than 6 inches, and an object may reach the back of your throat without you gagging.
Once you have practiced, keep the lips, and throat moist. Now that you won't gag, your partner will immediately notice the change!
Remember, practice makes perfect. Don't do something you feel uncomfortable in doing. This is for those wanting to spice up their love life, and make sure they are pleasing to the fullest capacity.

Step 4Finally, After controlling your reflex, you can then move to technique. Usually a person can't become good at performance because he hasn't control the gag. The ability to evenly saturate your mouth without any saliva spilling over is what will glorify your partner. Moisture, plus, gag control=Happy partner! But most of all, communication is the key to a good relationship, Use your mouth in every way, that's what is there for!

RIP BILL....

Omg so today i get a text that is just some little bits of news, and actor david carradine passed away!

I cant beleive it, most of everyone knows him as bill from kill bill, but those of us who watched tv in the early 90's or so know him as qui chan kane from Kung-fu the legend continues and from the original kung-fu from the 70's or so. He was the actor that replaced Bruce Lee as the lead because they wanted someone that the audience could relate to more than a complete asian.. Some intresting news however is that he wasnt even half asian at all! I remember when I first found that out, I was a little bit shocked lol I thought he was at least some like a quarter or semi asian but nooo hes not even a little bit lol. This news shocked the hell out of me because I had no idea! Then I read a update that says that a maid found him in his room with a rope around his neck and body!!! I hope that he didnt comit suicide, that would really suck major ass! Im sure no one knew that he was sad or whatever, but I know that it does suck soo much because he will be missed soooooo much by everone; old fans and new ones alike will miss him!

Rest in peace... :(

That is all..... for now :)

Sooo much random thoughs rolling around!

Ok, so here we go; the rant is a commin! First and fore most, I read soo many different things online that Ive just got to mention on here lol.
So have you heard about that chick from miachel jacksons thriller video? The girl who was in the blue leport print pedal pushers and jacket with red heels? Well this slow fool decided that she wanted to sue him. Its like really NOW, now after all this time, you want to sue someone over not getting paid for anything lol. Its like damnit, did you smoke up all the "money" you got the first time around? Im so confused on this, also one of the producers, who did thriller and black or white; john landis, he is suing jackson because he never got paid for all the videos he did that brought all that money in. See he has a case, cause he did work, that bish didnt do a damn thing but walk the hoe stroll in the video lol. Moral of this story, you want cash you bet at start dont wait lol

Next rant if you will lol, ya boy diddy, need i say more? Yes damnit, soooo seems like he will snatch up all your monies if you mess with him. I mean really REALLY?? Why do people still mess with this fool? He charges people so many fees so that they dont even know what is happening and at the end of the day they wonder where their money is. So many artists were on badboy that use to be good and lordie they fell off: 112, total, faith, new edition, mase, case, shyine, danity kane, donny klang, you know day 26 is next, he gets so out of pocket that he thinks that hes like god's gift to the world! The hold he has on all the artists is some what short of amazing because they beleive whole heartedly that he is going to be the one who brings them to the top.. Its like noooooooooooooo stupid, a real record label will work with you and try to come up with things that will keep you relevant; ie: a new video, photo spread (with your clothes on) apperences (in worth wild places) things of that nature. Thats also saying that you are an artist with a good record, like you have your club bangers and also your balads and what not but its also saying that people love you as a artist, and that they beleive in your vision of your music. A good artist is hard to find however because most people just want to put out one club banger get the up front cash for it and run a muck with the money they get and forget that when the song is played out that they still have to pay that money back some how, so its like ok, why not try to be the producer and writter for the song, come up with a concepet for the video and get a credit for that, so that you have money comming in from all angles and get to cut out some people in the process.. I figure the more people you get to cut out of the pie the bigger slice for you right??? But no, the kids out there today are more inclined to just get that one hit, which for the most part makes no sense because they have never finished highschool or grade school for that matter and have noclue how to write about anything but getting money or some video ho or whatever the case may be, ok so after you come up with one stupid hit, you have the kids figure, ima make a video that doesent match the song what so ever but ima still get money! NO, you arent and you know why, because if you didnt write the song then the writter is going to get money, if you didnt come up with the concept of the video then that person is going to get moeny, if you have no style what so ever at all, then your stylest get the money, if you have had NO hand in making the video, then you get nothing, and damnit if you work for diddy then all his shit is in the video and FOR DAMN SURE YOU GET NOTHING!

Most people are so starved for attention when they become a artist on badboy that they are willing to say yes to anything, which is how they get you! Its like, you dont read the small print huh? Ok, so if you dont like I know you dont then im going to put all the legal shit i can stick you with in there because i know you wont read it, its also because maybe you cant understand that im going to put a 2 million dollar retainer on it so that if you break your contract with me, you still owe me 2 million plus 5 albums that i know you are never going to make, im going to half ass market you and have you everywhere so that everyone is sick of you so that when your second album comes out, no one is going to buy it and you owe me THAT money as well! But all of this is in the fine print, and I know you arent going to read it, so I will also let you use my car in the video, and I will do you the favor of being in your video and letting you use my house in the video, but what you dont know is that Im going to charge you a fee for all of that as well, and get a big fat tax write off on it and you arent going to see a dime, because its all tied up in the fee's ive charged you! See I know i can keep this up on the entire album because you didnt read the fine print, but its ok, you can come with me on vacation, I will make it better and you will be able to make more money off of the next album I do with you, but this time im going to be on every song, and in EVERY video with you so that I know i can use what ive got to make it better. If more artist read the fine print when dealing with bad boy shit like THIS wouldnt happen, but they get sooo sucked in to working with the all mighty diddy that they just go ok, i will sign!

People wonder why I dont listent to every thing, its because I like REAL artists that have TALENT and know better than to do silly things like that. My point here however is that, if more people who want to "make it" in the music business read the fine print and have GOOD people around then with their BEST intrest in mind, this fool wouldnt be able to suck the life out of them like he does on the regualr!!

I think I missed my calling in life to be an entertainment lawyer lol or maybe just to spread the word lol idk :)

That is all.............. for now :)

ps forgive the miss spelled words..(no spell check where I am lol)

What do you beleive in, and can you prove it?

Soo Kiddies, as some of you may know, I was talking to a guy who I thought had some common sense, but it turned out to be false! I mean the ONLY ONLY plus part about this guy was that he knew how to put down some good oral. I swear he could teach a class on it lol. So Im thinking we could work a little something out, but then today we meet up, kinda last minute and head down town. We go to south street sea port, while we are walking we go past a verizon store, I think and there is a AG (agressive) girl who works there behind the counter near the window, so hes like ehh, and im like what's wrong? He goes I just dont get it, and im like dont get what? (honestly idk what was wrong lol ) he's like I dont get why some women want to look like men, and im like oh you mean the ag? He's like the what, and im like the ag, it means agressive, and im like well she wants to look like a guy so what, like what really is the problem. So we sit down because im tired and now ima little pissed because I dont get what the big deal was about the girl, (btw, she was kinda cute!) so I ask, well what's your view on all gay people? He just starts going off with all this stupid shit about how gay people are just as bad as pedofiles, (what!!) Im like they are two different things, very different things. Hes like gay people arent people, and they dont deserve the same rights as ANYONE else, and im like this is the STUPIDEST SHIT IVE EVER HEARD IN MY ENTIRE LIFE! Hes like gay people shouldnt have kids and that they are brainwashing the kids to be just like them, and im like what the hell are you talking about, every child deserves love from WHOEVER thier parents are, im like gay people are fighting for righs just like black people have been for like forever. Hes like its not the same thing and im like yes it is, its exactly the same thing. His compairsons were just aweful, he compaired gay rights to pedafiles, and people who want to marry thier animals, or whatever and im like i feel sorry for you, because that's not a healthy outlook on life. Hes like oh im not going to change for anyone, and im like you are too fuckin old to be such an ass, (hes 45 btw) I mean i really feel sorry because how can you be so closed off from great people and say some doumb shit like oh i dont mind gay people but they need to stay out of my way because they hit on me, i mean really REALLY! So then after ALL of that, hes like oh can we work past this, im like nigga are you high? im like no, hes like ok, well see you later, and leaves. Good riddence to bad rubbish!!!

Its High time, I look else where anyway, stupid people bore the shit out of me anyway!

That is all....................for now :)

What happens when Diddy is your boss?

So yesterday I'm watching the finale part one or whatever to making the band 4. Danity kane of course is done and diddy has sunk his claws in to dawn and is keeping her in her contract. He claims "if" he puts danity kane back together, she will be the only on left. He just releases everyone out of their contracts and she of course is in shock.

So poor Andrea leaves and went back home i guess, and dawn is like i don't understand why this has to happen. I watched this and I'm like this man will rape everyone who is on his label. I figure that if he see that he can make money off of someone then he will keep them as much as possible. But there have been other groups who have been on that label and have said the same thing. He charges each artist money for whatever he does in THEIR video, I don't think that the artist realize that they get charged soooo much money for him to just stand the hell there!

In the end, however they see SOME money, which isn't much at all because he takes a fee, and then everyone else takes a fee so if the artist isn't the writer or producer or something besides the one singing the freakin song they are just going to be screwed!

Danity Kane-- rip 2009 oh well, guess it sucks to make the band huh?

That is all.........for now :)

Advice....because lord knows I MUST never know what im talking about!

So kiddies yesterday was advice day in the land of my life! One person after another was asking me for relationship advice, I swear it must have been a full moon yesterday or something.

One friend who i speak to on and off again some time for a good while, was telling me of his problem he had. I was asking him how everything was with the girl he was seeing now, because he seemed sooooooo happy with her, he im's me back and tells me that they broke up! That caught me sooo off guard because the last time we spoke he was going to go visit her and was so excited about it. I've never been so shocked in my life lol. He told me that she was "confused" (child im still confused over the situation) about their relationship I guess. I mean he said that they had been talking since September or so and had made plans for them to finally see each other face to face and were both really happy about it. So he tells me he he goes to see her for her birthday and he got her a present and some flowers and what not (hes a good boy :) ) all the right stuff and they spend like a week together or so, and that they were really happy to be together. They went out and talked and he met her family and people and such, he said that they shared some very special time together and what not, and i guess after he got back she said she was confused on what happened and their relationship.

So i was trying to offer him advice on the situation, but truthfully Im still confused on what happened. I don't understand how they both were on the same page as to what the plans were and she gets confused! I mean I really don't know lol, now child don't get me wrong, hes a great person, and im happy we're friends (i still don't know how that happened lol, that's another story lol) I try to tell him not to worry, and don't dwell on something that doesn't work because maybe she just wasn't ready for someone who is as good as he is or who is as focused on a relationship as he is, idk!

Now on to the other people I HAD to give advice to. So my brother,(hi poopoo) went to the barber shop yesterday and got his hair did lol, he sees MY EX there. (why, like he just didn't have NOWHERE ELSE TO GO GET A SHAPE UP) So my brother is trying to be nice and have small talk while he waits to get a shape up, and my ex is talking about life and whatever, and his job and what not. So he starts telling him that he and his girl are on the rocks because of they aren't on the same page with moving or getting an apartment or something that WE HAD ALREADY HAD A CONVERSATION ABOUT.

All of that just proves that I was freaking right on valid points in the relationship that crashed burned and died, and he was WRONG!!!! Hes telling him that most girls think of them selves and that they are selfish and blah blah blah, so my brother was like well.... you kinda lost something good when we broke up, and you started messing with little girls and what not, which is true because if you mess with girls who are young their mind sets are something different then WOMEN who are older; all of which is TRUE!!!!

So later in the night after I figure out how to sync my blue tooth with my phone (trust me it was a issue) I get a phone call from MY EX! (lord why) so hes like "oh can i get some advice" !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Im like wtf is up with TODAY of all days?? So im like what is it? Hes starts up with, how are you and blah blah, then hes like oh I need to know what would you say my issues are or something to that effect, and im like what? Im like I cant answer that, im like who the hell wants to know. All these tell me about my self questions and shit that is soooo annoying. So I later find out that him and his ex are on the rocks and that they are talking about shit that we talked about and what not and he came to realize NOW that I was right about how to try to compromise with someone if you see a future with them or want to have a future with them.

Lord he got laid in to yesterday, I was like well you don't know how to compromise and you think of your self and are very selfish in that way. I said I think that he isn't ready for a serious relationship with ANYONE, and needs to work on him self, I said that he has a fear of commitment, and that he claims he ready for something real when lord know's he isn't. I also told him that if he wants to have a relationship with any one he has to be willing to listen to the other person and give them time to open up to him, Im like you cant force people to tell you about them selves it just wont work out that way. I also stated that things that aren't relevant to the current relationship should be talked about, like if it honestly has nothing to do with the current situation then it shouldn't be brought up. He really got told about him self and I think that everything I said is hitting close to home because, its starting to make sense and its like wow your right...

Huh, I think the obvious will slap you down one day!!!!!

That is all for now.................. :)

Yes I dream in color.

So last night I had a dream that was all over the place. It started out in this post office/ wedding chapel, idk. The bride was wearing all this white including her makeup and the carpet was white, I swear it was so freaking tacky. So I see the look on the groom's face and even though I cant see his face I can tell that he really doesn't want to be there, so im like lets go, lets just go and get out of here and we can find a court or some place and get married on our own. So we leave the place and run outside and hop in a cab. We're driving and driving in this cab for what seems like forever, we keep passing different places and im telling the groom "well, we could have stopped there or there" but we keep going past everywhere. While we are driving, I keep looking back and I say; I swear that the mother of the bride is after us and im starting to get uneasy about it, he looks back and tells me that its not her. It makes me relax after some more time, we fall in to a very relaxed state and we start to give each other the eye (lol) We end up having oral sex in the cab (most of which was on me) lol. We finally end up in a city some place and stop in front of a apartment building, we get out and go in to this building, we end up in this wonderful apartment which is marble, jade and glass (i know weird right lol) everywhere in the place there is running water, its falling down like rain and its running out like fountains. There is another couple there and they are friendly towards us. (The guy looks like the guard from the mummy returns i think is name is ardis farr or something like that i forgot, and the girl looks like she is Hawaiian) Like they are a really good looking couple, they tell us all about the apartment and what its like there. We all sit and relax in the house and they tell us about the security system, which isn't armed, so I tell them we should at least arm it so that we are save. We figure out the freaking thing and we go to arm it and then darts start to shoot out of the walls and we are all ducking and running around so that we don't get hit.

I swear it was a crazy dream that made no freaking sense what so ever!

That is all..........:) for now (maybe)

Movies.... Some times too late?

As if this shit couldn't have come too late! The tag line is even WORSE: New model original parts...really REALLY!!!! Now if you didn't read my rant about the third instalment of THIS movie then for the love of god go find it and read it but........if you didn't, then let me re-cap all of this for you with photos of course!!!



This is the first movie, which introduces us to a very new sexy vin diesel, with some kick ass cars in this movie. The story with this is cop (paul walker) goes undercover to bust up a ring of thieves who are stealing from mac trucks on the road and no one can figure out just how its being done. Paul walker has to gain dom's (vin diesel) trust so that he can get in to what they do. Long story short, at the end they find out he's (paul walker) is a cop, and he lets everyone go.



This is the second movie where paul walker goes to Miami after letting dom and everyone go. He (paul) goes down there to start his life over after giving up the badge and trying to put all that stuff behind him. The fed's how ever catch up with him since he's technically on the run and offer him a deal, help us get a agent out from some mob boss or whatever and we wipe your slate clean. Paul needs help so he knows someone else who can help him out and get his slate whipped clean as well, this is where tyreese comes in to the picture (lord why??) Together they manage to gain the guys trust enough to get in to his gang and do some jobs for him. Paul's other friends however ( ludacris and davon aoki) are in Miami and they run street races and such for cash. Long story short with this horror of the movie, is that only paul walker's character was in THIS MOVIE and this is the second part, they take down the boss, save the agent, and tyreese and paul snatch up monies to start their own garage. Side note: Vin disel as well as the other main characters AREN'T in this movie, so it made no sense to make it!

But wait there's more.............



This garbage! I didn't even watch all of this movie, so I still kinda have no clue what really happened, but I will tell you that DRIFTING isn't a sport, this movie was straight trash! Everyone who did see it who i talked to hated it because it had NOTHING NOTHING to do with any of the movies BUUUUUUUUUUUUUTTTT............why was vin diesel at the END of this one????? I swear soo random...

Now you are caught up to this one god willing this movie will be better than the last and almost as good as the first, but pfft idk!

That is all.............for now :)

So you wanna be on top...but at what cost?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VEPN3CehhHE&eurl=http://www.dlisted.com/&feature=player_embedded


So today (3/15/09) one of my friends chantell was telling me about how she went to a casting call for americas next top model. Well the next season Miss me me me I I I, Aka Tyra Banks, said that the girls could be five seven and under! Humfp! (Can anyone say ratings) So they have a casting call yesterday (3/14/09) at the ass crack of dawn. They had NO order what so ever so ofcourse people started to act a damn fool!

There were girls trying to cut the line and start fights it was so out of hand. I never understand why people want to go on that show, not one of the "models" that really wins gets anything worth a damn thing! They all whore them selves out and it still dosent work. How sad for them :(

That is all..............for now :)

DIY, Do it your self?? I guess that's what's up? lol

I swear when people have too much time on thier hands! I mean you have to kinda give it to whoever came upwith that some kind of credit because THAT DID TAKE some kinda thought in to make that. I swear some times you just have to wonder why just why come up with that when you can buy a better one because godforbid the shit breaks and you have to make that alll over again lol

That is all........:) for now!

Some times the possible should be impossible.

(I really like this photo, its trippy!)

So yesterday kiddies, Im at work and my ex shows up and surprises me at work and im like hey what's up. Hes like hey i saw you greeting and i decided to come back and say hi and what ever so im like oh ok hey.
We talked for al little bit because im at work i cant really talk a whole lot so im like well meet me after work you know just to be nice to finish our talk.

So I leave work and hes outside and we walk towards my house and hes talking about work and what not and im being nice an listing as much as i can because we all know that my ear is messed up so its hard for me to hear folks lol. We get to my apartment and we are standing in the hallway talking and hes going on about his life and im making jokes, he tells me that he has a girlfriend (lol) and hes the man in that relationship (lol, i guess before he wasn't in ours) lol So ofcurese im being nice and im like oh ok, im wishing him well on everything because don't get me wrong im trying to be the bigger person and be like well i hope that everything works out and that you don't put anyone through all that drama that happened in that relationship. We did discuss some major points that didn't help in that relationship so its like whatever. I really feel that deep down in side he wanted me to get mad at the fact that he had someone else (i didn't really care cause he did say she was the jealous type which isn't good but hey whatever) He did however say he was sorry for how things ended and that's what has caused me to write this blog today.. Some times I feel that things like that are just so late cause its been months since we've broken up like a good long time, and i feel that all of this came out because he has someone new so its like hmmm i still don't care, because as far as im convinced that relationship died that night all that drama happened and the love i did have for him died right along with it!

On to other things!

Is it strange that I had a dream about ray-j and chris brown last night?? How old am i again? (28)lol It made noooooooooooo sense what so ever lol I dreamt that ray j was trying to have sex with me and I didn't want him it was like border line rape (???) but it wasn't like to that extreme? Im like trying to run to the bathroom and get to chris who is in the shower but the shower looks like a big round tube that is covered in fabric, so ray j is like right behind me and im trying to stab the shower and yell for chris to come help me. He (chris) can hear me but cant get out of the shower to help; so ray j grabs me at the door and is holding me by my neck so i kick back and spit at him while im trying to push him off and he bust a nut on my back (wtf?????) Im so confused.... then I finally manage to get in the shower to where chris is and hes hugging me and telling me its ok.(??) he starts to tickle me while we are in the shower and im laughing in real life (lol idk) I know that this dream is ALL over the place lol I really dont get what is going on lol, I'd just thought I'd share with you all lol :P

That is all..............:)

"If she wasnt so pretty would people still care?"

Today I was reading one of my favorite blogs (dlisted.com) They supposedly have a photo of princess riri, right after chris handed her ass back to her lol. She looks like she got in a girl fight and lost lol. But I digress, I went to the comment section and there was a comment that said: "Im a man and im not trying to be a dick but if she wasn't so pretty would people be this pissed or still care?"

I totally agree with that statement, because if she wasn't so "unique" looking (i use the term very very loosely) no one would give a damn, they really wouldn't, if she was some round the way girl people would be like "oh how sad" that's it. Nothing else would be said about it. If the girl looked like whoever, and the head line was like "Oh chris brown beat some chick in the industry" no one would give a single fuck, but because its riri (who looks like she works a last nerve) people are all bent out of shape.

It shows you just how much people put the value on lots of beauty vs anything else. It really annoys me to no end that If this was anyone else, I truly believe that no one would give a fuck!

That is all........:)

Young, Older, and Bi-polar men

(The reason for that photo is because in the movie mina harker (peta wilson) was a like few hundred year old vampire and a very younger Tom sawyer liked her and he was sweet towards her even though he was tooo young for her.)


So on a chat I go to that I manage to stumble across one day when i was surfing though my phone. Its this little stupid chat called airg.com Im convinced these people came up with it all work for boost Mobile, cause 99% of the people on there have those phones. I still dont know what half the terms are on there because idk what a hook up means, its a phone term that has to deal with boost mobile. Most of the people on there are kids, like kid kids, and they want to trade pics and all this stuff. Im not the one to trade photos, the ones you see are the ones you get and that's it!

Now 99% of the time, there are only perv's and "others" who want to talk to me about not a damn thing what so ever. There are a few friends that Ive really made on there. FRIENDS NOT FANCLUB but there are some really interesting friends that ive made, like one guy bless his heart, hes 17 (yes i know i know) now dont get me wrong he's as cute as he want to be but damnit if he isnt soo young, and he has a foot fetish. lol like a really bad one lol the first thing he said to me to get my attention was what color are your feet and what color are your toenails lol. After I had stopped laughing i really wanted to know about why he had a foot fetish and he just really liked feet.

After that, I realized that he is a real sweet heart so I just go along with it about the whole foot thing lol.

There are other guys that I talk to that seem okish lol and what i mean by that is that they are ok to talk to because lord knows that the one i have some little bit in common with would have ISSUES and I do mean ISSUES. HE HAS 6 KIDS (why o lordie why) been in jail, knows how to do EVERYTHING cause he's just one of those people that likes to learn everything, but also loves being a dad. That's just too much in one shot. I mean damn that's all to the left and what not.

The other one that's left i swear he's bipolar lol, I cant even with that one lol.

When the past keeps comming back..OR just too much free time?

So I recently got a email from my bestfriend about how some guy she new from years ago who I guess at one point they were friends and i guess they use to discuss all the problems he had with his wife. Now what it seems like is that he must have took his kindness for her liking him, Idk, but what I feel is that people can't just give a shoulder to lean on nowa days because people want to take their freakn arms!

The email she sent to everyone the guy just seems to have went off the deep end. Like I said before, Idk what happened for sure, but if you are someone who is married to someone and you are having problems its OK to talk to someone about it, like to get it off their chest, it truly is. I always feel like if something is working your nerve its good to get it off your chest by writing it down or at least telling someone that you trust. But also you have to remember that damnit they are your friend and they trust you not to go off the fucking deep end!

That is all for now...............:)

Chris Brown, gulity until proven innocent???

So by now EVERY ONE has read on what "happened" between chris brown and riri (hmfp)Since I wasn't there I can only offer my own opinion on what "happened". I really am someone who people watches and I always say that any time I've seen photos of them they look so out of sync.(mind you these are "candid" photos) (hmfp)I mean real couples have some sort of feelings that translate on to print and yet these two never did at all! I always said riri looks like the type that is so over bearing or very emotional. There have been reports that she's said that she cant stand to be with out people she "loves" ok, see that's understand able but when you have such a horrible disposition than there is just so much someone can take. Now don't get me wrong, I don't mean its ok to freaking beat a woman, not at all, but if someone is working your last fucking nerve and you are like stop, stop stop and they don't and you are just backed up against the wall you lash out.

Now we all also know that she has been reported to be a very jealous person. Ok, so if you are "dating" someone (hmpf) who is famous as well and their ENTIRE fan base is women, what the hell do you expect!?!?!?! They are going to have fans and what not!! And what I really think is that chris just got tired of it all, I mean this girl looks like she is very very hard to please, and the "supposed" girl that he got a text from is some random chick. If I was him I would want some random jumpoff cause it would be less stress!!! Plus hes only 19, (im 28, and some times you just don't need a relationship)

What really kills me however is that, the media and almost everyone has said that poor chris is to blame, has anyone ever thought maybe just MAYBE that she's the one to blame??? I swear its not fair, they have even pulled ALL his music off the air, music off the shelf's everything yet I hear her shit all over the place, Im sick of it! There are people who agree with me, and I know that we area right, until all the facts come out about this if they ever do Im going to believe that she is just a jealous self centered girl who will cry wolf until everyone will get sick and tired of her.

Face it Princess RiRi, your time is up its 14:59!

That is all.......For now..:)

Learn something new every day!

An underground sexual fetish which involves one partner (the feeder) feeding the other, both to obtain sexual arousal and to encourage weight gain in the feedee. Feederism can vary in nature, from a consensual act between two people who mutually appreciate a larger body type, to non-consensual abuse, which may involve force-feeding and bondage and is undertaken with the intention of fattening up the feedee to the point of immobility and total dependence. The weight gained can also vary froma few pounds to hundreds, whilst some feeder relationships are not undertaken with the purpose of weight gain at all but for the enjoyment of food in an intimate context. Most feedees are female (BBW or SSBBW) whilst the feeders tend to be FA males, although this is not the case, and gay/lesbian feeder relationships are not entirely unheard of.



Now see, I didnt even know this fetisish existed! I mean lord knows Im in to alot of things but some times I draw the line.. This right here is just tooooooo much. I cant stand to really hear people eat let alone some times see people eat so there would be no way in hell I could do this. Now dont get me wrong, because I support everyones fetishs and what not but whooo lord lol.. Ive seen photos of this and lol its too much....

That is all.............:)