Some times the possible should be impossible.

(I really like this photo, its trippy!)

So yesterday kiddies, Im at work and my ex shows up and surprises me at work and im like hey what's up. Hes like hey i saw you greeting and i decided to come back and say hi and what ever so im like oh ok hey.
We talked for al little bit because im at work i cant really talk a whole lot so im like well meet me after work you know just to be nice to finish our talk.

So I leave work and hes outside and we walk towards my house and hes talking about work and what not and im being nice an listing as much as i can because we all know that my ear is messed up so its hard for me to hear folks lol. We get to my apartment and we are standing in the hallway talking and hes going on about his life and im making jokes, he tells me that he has a girlfriend (lol) and hes the man in that relationship (lol, i guess before he wasn't in ours) lol So ofcurese im being nice and im like oh ok, im wishing him well on everything because don't get me wrong im trying to be the bigger person and be like well i hope that everything works out and that you don't put anyone through all that drama that happened in that relationship. We did discuss some major points that didn't help in that relationship so its like whatever. I really feel that deep down in side he wanted me to get mad at the fact that he had someone else (i didn't really care cause he did say she was the jealous type which isn't good but hey whatever) He did however say he was sorry for how things ended and that's what has caused me to write this blog today.. Some times I feel that things like that are just so late cause its been months since we've broken up like a good long time, and i feel that all of this came out because he has someone new so its like hmmm i still don't care, because as far as im convinced that relationship died that night all that drama happened and the love i did have for him died right along with it!

On to other things!

Is it strange that I had a dream about ray-j and chris brown last night?? How old am i again? (28)lol It made noooooooooooo sense what so ever lol I dreamt that ray j was trying to have sex with me and I didn't want him it was like border line rape (???) but it wasn't like to that extreme? Im like trying to run to the bathroom and get to chris who is in the shower but the shower looks like a big round tube that is covered in fabric, so ray j is like right behind me and im trying to stab the shower and yell for chris to come help me. He (chris) can hear me but cant get out of the shower to help; so ray j grabs me at the door and is holding me by my neck so i kick back and spit at him while im trying to push him off and he bust a nut on my back (wtf?????) Im so confused.... then I finally manage to get in the shower to where chris is and hes hugging me and telling me its ok.(??) he starts to tickle me while we are in the shower and im laughing in real life (lol idk) I know that this dream is ALL over the place lol I really dont get what is going on lol, I'd just thought I'd share with you all lol :P

That is all..............:)

"If she wasnt so pretty would people still care?"

Today I was reading one of my favorite blogs (dlisted.com) They supposedly have a photo of princess riri, right after chris handed her ass back to her lol. She looks like she got in a girl fight and lost lol. But I digress, I went to the comment section and there was a comment that said: "Im a man and im not trying to be a dick but if she wasn't so pretty would people be this pissed or still care?"

I totally agree with that statement, because if she wasn't so "unique" looking (i use the term very very loosely) no one would give a damn, they really wouldn't, if she was some round the way girl people would be like "oh how sad" that's it. Nothing else would be said about it. If the girl looked like whoever, and the head line was like "Oh chris brown beat some chick in the industry" no one would give a single fuck, but because its riri (who looks like she works a last nerve) people are all bent out of shape.

It shows you just how much people put the value on lots of beauty vs anything else. It really annoys me to no end that If this was anyone else, I truly believe that no one would give a fuck!

That is all........:)

Young, Older, and Bi-polar men

(The reason for that photo is because in the movie mina harker (peta wilson) was a like few hundred year old vampire and a very younger Tom sawyer liked her and he was sweet towards her even though he was tooo young for her.)


So on a chat I go to that I manage to stumble across one day when i was surfing though my phone. Its this little stupid chat called airg.com Im convinced these people came up with it all work for boost Mobile, cause 99% of the people on there have those phones. I still dont know what half the terms are on there because idk what a hook up means, its a phone term that has to deal with boost mobile. Most of the people on there are kids, like kid kids, and they want to trade pics and all this stuff. Im not the one to trade photos, the ones you see are the ones you get and that's it!

Now 99% of the time, there are only perv's and "others" who want to talk to me about not a damn thing what so ever. There are a few friends that Ive really made on there. FRIENDS NOT FANCLUB but there are some really interesting friends that ive made, like one guy bless his heart, hes 17 (yes i know i know) now dont get me wrong he's as cute as he want to be but damnit if he isnt soo young, and he has a foot fetish. lol like a really bad one lol the first thing he said to me to get my attention was what color are your feet and what color are your toenails lol. After I had stopped laughing i really wanted to know about why he had a foot fetish and he just really liked feet.

After that, I realized that he is a real sweet heart so I just go along with it about the whole foot thing lol.

There are other guys that I talk to that seem okish lol and what i mean by that is that they are ok to talk to because lord knows that the one i have some little bit in common with would have ISSUES and I do mean ISSUES. HE HAS 6 KIDS (why o lordie why) been in jail, knows how to do EVERYTHING cause he's just one of those people that likes to learn everything, but also loves being a dad. That's just too much in one shot. I mean damn that's all to the left and what not.

The other one that's left i swear he's bipolar lol, I cant even with that one lol.

When the past keeps comming back..OR just too much free time?

So I recently got a email from my bestfriend about how some guy she new from years ago who I guess at one point they were friends and i guess they use to discuss all the problems he had with his wife. Now what it seems like is that he must have took his kindness for her liking him, Idk, but what I feel is that people can't just give a shoulder to lean on nowa days because people want to take their freakn arms!

The email she sent to everyone the guy just seems to have went off the deep end. Like I said before, Idk what happened for sure, but if you are someone who is married to someone and you are having problems its OK to talk to someone about it, like to get it off their chest, it truly is. I always feel like if something is working your nerve its good to get it off your chest by writing it down or at least telling someone that you trust. But also you have to remember that damnit they are your friend and they trust you not to go off the fucking deep end!

That is all for now...............:)

Chris Brown, gulity until proven innocent???

So by now EVERY ONE has read on what "happened" between chris brown and riri (hmfp)Since I wasn't there I can only offer my own opinion on what "happened". I really am someone who people watches and I always say that any time I've seen photos of them they look so out of sync.(mind you these are "candid" photos) (hmfp)I mean real couples have some sort of feelings that translate on to print and yet these two never did at all! I always said riri looks like the type that is so over bearing or very emotional. There have been reports that she's said that she cant stand to be with out people she "loves" ok, see that's understand able but when you have such a horrible disposition than there is just so much someone can take. Now don't get me wrong, I don't mean its ok to freaking beat a woman, not at all, but if someone is working your last fucking nerve and you are like stop, stop stop and they don't and you are just backed up against the wall you lash out.

Now we all also know that she has been reported to be a very jealous person. Ok, so if you are "dating" someone (hmpf) who is famous as well and their ENTIRE fan base is women, what the hell do you expect!?!?!?! They are going to have fans and what not!! And what I really think is that chris just got tired of it all, I mean this girl looks like she is very very hard to please, and the "supposed" girl that he got a text from is some random chick. If I was him I would want some random jumpoff cause it would be less stress!!! Plus hes only 19, (im 28, and some times you just don't need a relationship)

What really kills me however is that, the media and almost everyone has said that poor chris is to blame, has anyone ever thought maybe just MAYBE that she's the one to blame??? I swear its not fair, they have even pulled ALL his music off the air, music off the shelf's everything yet I hear her shit all over the place, Im sick of it! There are people who agree with me, and I know that we area right, until all the facts come out about this if they ever do Im going to believe that she is just a jealous self centered girl who will cry wolf until everyone will get sick and tired of her.

Face it Princess RiRi, your time is up its 14:59!

That is all.......For now..:)