Random Thoughts.....Maybe

Single life........ The REAL reason.

2010-02-06T16:10:00.003-05:00

So me and one of my friends were talking; and I was telling her my thoughts on why the select few of us are single. Now my reason is because, I said we all inspire deep real feelings in folks; now most people if not a good chunk of them are so afraid of it that they go running for the hills. I think that it ends up making them feel like they don't deserve to be happy? I also think its because we all know EXACTLY what we want out of a relationship; weather it be a gay straight or whatever relationship, I think that the other person seems to think that they shouldn't or not able to feel what ever it is that we put out, so they seek folks who are very very VERY dependent on them, who want to be the victim in it so it makes them feel safe.

With THAT being said, now why do folks feel the need to either complain about the relationships they have; or what they cant have. I never understand it. I know a girl who complains about i guess whoever she is/was talking to who decided to go off and do something else and say it was her fault that they were spending time with each other... idk, all i know is that she ended up ranting about it. So my thought on it is, if you mess with these girlies who AREN'T ready for what YOU are trying to offer then why complain about it? If you are so sick about them not understanding YOU and you are trying to change who you are to grow as a person and not just to become someone you're not then why keep messing with the same girls? The whole point of growing as a person is so that you can figure out what YOU really want out of someone who you want to share your life with. If you keep finding the same type of people over and over again are you just fooling your self about trying to change or are you just going with what's safe?

I say try out side of the box, yes getting to know people is always good, but damn it try different things, and don't get in to the habit of trying to know a million folks at once. I think that's another issue folks have, with not being able to take their time in getting to know someone who has great qualities. People get so hung up on trying to find the next big freak that they never get to know the real person deep down. Now with my friends as well as my self, we are people who are always in control so we know how to get to know a person deep down, and get to know the real REAL them, and that in it self scares folks because they are so use to just hearing about what someones favorite position is that they forget how to answer what's your favorite place to go to relax. Trust me if you were to ask a person now a days where they like to go to relax, it would be something stupid like roll a blunt and chill in the club. Sadly people don't know what relax is.. My friends as well as my self know that RELAX means to go someplace like a vacation or a park, or something like that; not go to some damn club where we get all hot and sweaty and what not to RELAX.

So the real question is that are my friends as well as my self doomed to be single forever? NOOOO We are the best singles, who know what we want; who know that when silly folks who REALLY know what the hell that they want will come out of the woodwork!

So until that happens sooner or later; have fun! Safely... ;)

That is all...........For now :)

LIfe as is?

2010-01-03T22:40:00.002-05:00

*Side note, yay first blog of 2010**

I have a friend, who is a mother (which I just kinda found out lol) and who no doubt is a great mother. She was going to adopt a child so that her current child who just had a birthday could have a younger sister. I got a few updates about this happening just recently, she found out however that woman that she was adopting from had the baby earlier; and never told her even though Im under the impression that they had an agreement to do so. Understandably, she is upset because the girl didn't tell her that she had the baby, another day goes by; she tells me that she found out that the girl had the baby for a week on facebook ( how messed up is that?) and she claims that she spoke to her after the fact; yet another day passes; so today I hear that she has worked out all the issues and is able to pick up her new daughter from the hospital from the other family. Im happy for her.. I hear however a few hours later that the family of the mother who is giving up the baby stepped in and is blocking the adoption because my friend is gay....

Now Im truly confused because im under the impression when you adopt they would already kinda know your business. I mean she already has a child, which im under the impression that she adopted; and as far as i know is a damn good mother so what is the problem?? I really don't get it, i mean if you are going to adopt then, they interview you to see if you are a fit parent and your living conditions are ok and everything. If being gay is the ONLY thing that is stopping some one from being a parent then that's a fucking shame, one has NOTHING to do with the other. Being gay isn't an excuse for someone to not be a parent, I just don't understand why STUPID folks would use that as an excuse. I don't get it, because if you've adopted before, and the folks you've dealt with have said that you are a fit person to be a parent then what the hell is the problem! I swear my heart broke for her even though it was a text message, I could tell she was so upset, I cant believe that people would put other people through sooo much to adopt a child who just wants parents who love them.

I have no idea what the situation is now, but i hope that they all figure that out since this poor child is in the middle.

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I was watching tv before like earlier in the day and I've kept wondering WHY THE HELL IS EVERY ONE GETTING A REALITY SHOW? I mean there are desperate people that are on vh1 (thank you flavor flav...bastard!) that whore them selves out, all the time; so that their 14:59 doesn't run out! But then we have to deal with all the krap on mtv, and then these teens in the middle of nowhere; with a camera crew,talking about how their life in the mid-west is soooooooooooooooooo hard. I cant, and how much highschool life is sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo hard as well, Its just one interchangeable teen after another. The "other reality shows" are so horrid-ly done that we all know that its no where near real.. I refuse to watch the city, but know someone who does, and we talk about how "hard life is on the upper east/west side" how one of the girls gets a job in a fashion house "just because shes that good"---**side eye** We all know that she is there just because the camera crew is there, and the real folks are busy in the back working wayyy too hard.

2009 was the year of camera's being up your ass! I know a guy at my job who wants to be famous, but at what cost? He's trying to change his name, even though its still the same just shorter, (i still don't get it LOL) but he doesn't work. I mean how does that work?? Work folks lol

I wanna write more, but I finally got a meee day tomorrow so that's all...........for now :)

Tv time...With a random chaser please!

2009-09-15T20:52:00.003-04:00

Ohh kiddies, soo much tv has been watched by me on the rare times that i get to stay home and relax lol. So did you see the vma's.... Hmmfp! Is what i have to say, I mean did they just tell security to have the night off and go smoke a fattie or something? I mean stage hoppers galore lol Its sad though because Mr. Gay fish (southpark) decided to hop the stage and act like a ignant negro, and all of that drama over shadowed Janet Jackson's performance, which was off the hook by the way! They did a whole michael jackson montage which was really on point. But instead of everyone talking about that, they are all talking about how this fool decides to jump the stage during Taylor Swift's (who?) speech, he snatched the mic out of her hand and went on this raid or rant about how beyonce ( sit down) should have won what ever award that the poor girl just won. Beyonce however is looking at him and shacking her head like wtf and apparently it wasn't even important award, to the other chick it was though. Kanye (or however you spell it) brotha pull the fucking stick already!

Next stage hopper, lil' momma (......) You know that hard faced chick who came out with that song lip gloss (.............) that was her ONLY hit which put her on on the map, and don't get me wrong, she can rap but she is tooooo hard faced, or maybe her stylist just didn't love her (idk) So this brawed (spelled wrong but it stays) decides that she wants to hop on stage when jayz (the house husband) and alicia keys are preforming something, so they finish and she hoppes up on stage to pose with them, so jay z hopps in front of her and tries to block her out but she still standing there with her hard face! That show was a hot mess, and im glad that I didn't watch but go to at least catch Janet preform.

Let us touch a little bit on princess ri-ri, honey, sit down already, you cant sing YOU CANT SING its like a drowning cat its like a dying giraffe! (yes they make noise) YOU ARE NOT A ICON, no honey you aren't! You have no style, you are all over the place, what you are doing orr trying to do is what the girlies in japan have been doing for YEARS and they get it right; you don't! Go some place and sit down and keep quiet, ok?? ooh ps: Take that tranny from a past life beyonce with you already (sweetie become a house wife and keep quiet too) That is all for that!

Back to our program (that was a commercial) What else is going on?? Oh near my apartment, they have been doing construction on the back steps and idk when they are going to be finished so there is a gate there, lordie I have to go all the way around to get anywhere and lordie there are corner jockeys everywhere at night so I have to walk fast lol (corner jockey; noun,folks who's sole job is to stand at the corner and do NOTHING) Its hard enough that I worked runaway slave hours the other day and I cant wait to see my check lol (16 1/2 hours! in one day)

Halloween is coming up soo happy! I requested that day off lol cause i cant wait to go out lol I so want to go on vacation again, because work after a while gets a little tight lol. Lord only knows when that's going to happen lol but whatever lol.

That is all for now....... :)

Btw: I burninnnnn (lol private joke lol)

PPS: Today sept 15th 2009 is gay fish day on south park!

Work, Chile you know we aint free!

2009-08-23T18:43:00.002-04:00

Why does everything stress everyone out? Some times I wonder if we must in force a rule where we slap stupid people?!?! But lord then my hand would hurt like hell all the time lol. Work has been stressing me out kinda but not majorly because its to the point where stupid people at work are making everyone want to rip their hair out lol. So many of us have been there for so long we all want to just jump ship and leave. They are like oh why don't you all stay because i promise its going to get better and we all know, because its bs its total bs to everyone. Its like we all aren't kids we are all adults we know how the shit works. Its no going to be a great thing :(

Everyone doesn't want to stay there and the job is becoming like a prison because we cant do this, we cant do this and its like well wouldn't you want your employees to be kinda happy or at least happyish idk. Maybe that's asking too much.

Ive been thinking also, about how I'd rather be single FOR THE REST OF MY NATURAL LIFE than have to deal with another emotionally damaged person, this one girl I'm BARELY talking to has so much fucking issues its not healthy, i swear these folks are drawn to me! Idk how it happens, all I do is say hi like after they say hi to me and it all goes down hill from there! They get mad at me for not sharing my ENTIRE life story with them (which I'm not going to do if I'm not comfortable) right off the bat, and then tell me their whole life story and all their issues. (people tend to tell me their whole life story no matter what I'm doing) Its not like I don't believe in taking it slow because i don't want to rush in to anything lord knows Ive learned about that lol. You would expect someone who is young or very young minded to act so obsessed with someone, but damn it she is the same age as me, and i also know one who is 18 and she seems to have common sense! You see how all over the place that is lol.

Personal Effing-Space!

2009-08-16T22:07:00.003-04:00

I know everyone, you are tired of fucking people all up in your personal space! So today i come home and go to the supermarket, even though its hot like balls outside, I still decide to go to the market to pick somethings up. So I get in line and this old freaking man decides he wants to stand right behind me,RIGHT BEHIND ME!!!!! Its not like he doesn't see my bight ass standing there!

I'm trying to put my stuff on the belt for the lady to ring up, and he decides that I must be in the way, so he puts his two freaking cans of beans on the thing in front of me and tries to push me out of the way so that he can get them before they go in front of this little old lady's bread. I'm like PERSONAL FUCKING SPACE! Then he has the fucking nerve to cough, COUGH WITH OUT COVERING HIS FUCKING MOUTH!

I don't understand how personal space has become a thing of the past or out of fashion. I mean if I don't know you, then shit back the fuck up!

I feel better lol that is all..............for now :)

Random-ness Come to me?!?!

2009-08-14T21:20:00.002-04:00

So yeah, finally get the chance to babble on here! Where do I begin? Well if you didn't know I went to the wendy williams show! Soo much fun, people saw me on tv, (grandma, madre) other folks who knew. Got some free stuff in there, the ab rocket,which antiono sabato jr was selling. Haven't seen the infomercial with him in it yet. Also these things called hair bumps (I think) well they were free too. Me and keizer had so much fun, I saw it he was on camera a lot!! He's famous lol, it was just like a big dance party. Oh, did I mention we went on vacation? Oh loridie it was sooooooooooooo much fun, everything is free, only thing you have to do is pay for your drinks, which is like ok well I got to pay for something, but its not even expensive at all!

Duty free is the places to go when you want to get the liquor cheap! lol god willing when my bday comes around..I can get to go on one too. So great, it was nice to see the water on the boat just going out on the sea, it looked like you could just walk from one place to the other on the water. That would have been so great too. Ever seen drunk white folks? On the ship there are soooo many lol they get pissy drunk and want to sing country and what not, had one lady "sing" respect, lol she just kept screaming the song sooo we all know she could barely cary a tune, who lordie another girl "sang" killing me softly and oh god she butchered it. I swear if lauren hill wasn't crazy that would have drove her nuts. The folks who worked on the cruse however were soo nice (shout out to lima) she was so awesome, cause we had a zillion questions, now we know for next time lol.

Whooo, Nassau Bahamas is hot like you wouldn't believe its like freaking Africa hot, its like the sun is like haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa on you, all you do is sweat! You have to go out there damn near naked! But the water is soooooo beautiful, its so blue, and lordie the water in Miami is green just like new york lol. Miami is africa hot as well, and its humid so its like you don't get a break even when the sun goes down. Its so much fun in south beach because there are gay's o'plenty out side mostly men lol there is a sprinkle of women. The hotel we were in was a old apt building which i kinda fell in love with, it was a studio/"one" bedroom apt, which was huge, and it had two queen sized beds in it along with a wonderful dining room table in it as well as a huge freaking flat screen tv. It took us a while to figure out what the channels were, btw on the ship most of the channels are in Spanish?!?!!? and there really isn't anything majorly on tv. The pool on the freakin ship is 7 feet deep so its like you are up to yo neck and what not in the pool.

We visited the urban in south beach, whooo the standards in there are like .................................. hmmm lol notice the blank spot, very questionable lol Most stores in south beach open late by new york standards which is very odd. We went to the Mc Donald's wanted some sweet tea expected the mega huge cup like they give us here also because it was so freaking hot, but nooo, we got the regular size which was okish, but the sweet tea had mad ice lol.. Btw birds are everywhere lol I really had soo much fun, I cant wait to do it all again!

Did you manage to catch "bad habits" video, if not check that out! So freaking sexy, I swear if i knew Maxwell, I would hug him and be like um yeah! lol

Soo what else? So more random-mess, ex boyfriend saw me, I think that he thought we were Friends, wanted a hug i was like you high? lol Then a girl I was talking to a girl and didn't hear from her for a freaking month and some change and the other day my phone was like brrrrrring and shes like hey how are you? Im like hooo look who it is. I swear they come out the wood work. Oh we were on the train coming home yesterday and this guy gets on and starts ranting about the most random shit ever. We are like wtf?? who is he talking to like hes going on about someone doesn't respect him or something or doesn't like him cause he works for a living or something it was like...dinner and a show like we always get lol
I miss those lol.

That is all.............for now :)

Do not go gentle into that good night.

2009-07-01T20:22:00.005-04:00

So as everyone... EVERYONE knows by now Michael Jackson has died... I know sad right, its like wow really its not like how everyone had made peace with Farrah dying because she was at the end of the road and she fought like hell! Like Dylan Thomas said: "Do not go gentle into that good night." Ive always loved that quote, fight like hell don't give up, and she never did. Michael however, was sick but he also kinda did it to him self, he had so many different meds he took all at one time and he just had so many different issues.. He had such a messed-up childhood, but its like he never at least I don't think spoke to anyone who could really help him enough to put them demons to bed. I think he carried all of that drama with him and after a while he may have just pushed that aside and figured if he were to act like a child again it would all go away. I do also believe that way in the back of his mind he did have a adult side as to where he thought being whit children was ok. Ive always thought that some where deep down inside he knew what he was doing, because lets not get it wrong, he was a smart man; he did make stupid decisions just like everyone else in life does, but I do think that he knew what he was doing with those kids. Maybe he thought what he was doing was ok, idk, im not sure I really don't know, maybe if i was studying psychology i could offer a better answer, but its just something i saw in the few times I've gotten to see just interviews and had a good look and what his body language was saying versus what he was saying out loud.

Some times people don't realize that their body language tells way more than what they are saying, so its like they are telling you one thing and their body language is telling you something different lol. Ive said this before when looking at photos of Chris brown and princess riri, their mess was always off!

June had just been the month of people dying, can you believe it it was freaking 6 people! I really believe that we are getting closer to the end only because just people keep leaving.

June was also the month were it kept raining! Its like lordie why? July has started and its been wonderful so far lol. I'm watching the memorial for Michael Jackson, and there are alot of people talking about mostly random stuff, and some people singing and its coming out kinda bad!

I'm also excited about vacation (yay poopoo) I'm gong to take sooo many photos lol, I promise to put them up all over the place lol, Its getting kinda close because we are leaving in like three weeks lol. I'm also a little excited about my "girlfriend" lol see, I got her sprung and I didn't even do anything to her... lol (yet) See she lives in Texas, which is like Africa hot lol, I mean I keep asking her about the weather and what not, even though she is like its hot lol. I try to make her understand that like in new york, its like a different kinda hot, because there are trees and a freaking breeze and it gets kinda humid, unlike down south where its soooooo hot. There isn't any like break in the heat, its like if you go outside you better bring your fat man rag (lol) a extra towel, a bottle of water, a fan, shades a whole mess of shit lol. I remember once I went to visit family (ugh) and i was watching the news and they were like there is a heat advisory out because a little girl fell and got third degree burns from the street, i was like see I'm one step closer to hell here! lol

Lordie there is mild drama at work, see there are two couples at work and everyone, i mean EVERYONE knows about them, lol jokes on them lol. And its like ok we know we don't care, but shit don't make it that obvious lol because its like yah we know but you don't want EVERY one to know lol. Its like to each is own, but don't put ur shit up in photos and come in on your days off, or wear the same shit, or wait around and lie to everyone cause its to the point where its getting sooooooooo sad. lol Its not like I'm saying no you cant date anyone, I'm not saying that at all I'm just saying be smart with your shit! Cause lord knows that place is HIGH SCHOOL LOL :p

That's all for now..........maybe :)

Sextra: 10 Tips To Get Your Fellatio Game Right

2009-06-19T21:07:00.001-04:00

Ladies do you have troubles keeping a man? Do you have a man at all? If you answered yes to one or both of these questions, get your head game right. And you can get and keep a man with great ease. No man will dispute the fact that he loves to get head and will never discourage you from forever fabulous fellatio. But the key word here is: discourage. Ladies, you must, first, want to perform. No man wants a girl to look unhappy or disgusted by giving him that goody so it would behoove any woman to enjoy the act of pleasuring your man, with a good attitude. If you want to acquire or keep a man, these 10 tips will prove great success.

1.) Get Involved - In order to peak his interest, you have to have to create the scene, men are extremely visual. Make the bed super sexy with some dark colored, soft sheets, light a few candles and be prepared, i.e. condoms. lube, cocktails and perhaps a bowl of strawberries or grapes. Make sure he knows he has your undivided attention, close and lock door, and slowly undress that man.
2.) Take your time - At this point, he's already anticipating your next move, and whatever you do at this point is sure to turn him on. Take your time, don't jump right in start slobbing, you'll only tire out your jaws very quickly. Give him some time to be excited. Don't be predictable. The power of touch is to often overlooked, suck his fingers, graze his chest with your mouth, lick his lips, you get it.
3.) Be eager and enthusiastic - you should be thrilled at the thought alone of your dude being in the palm of your hands (literally), whisper what your going to do to him, but be sexy of course. Dirty talk is good. Ask him how he wants it and make sure he can see and watch you and eye contact is a must! Remember this is an experience not a fleeting moment.
4.) Increase Arousal - once you commence your oral escapade, try a variety of moves and pay attention to how he responds. Once you find something he really enjoys, switch it up on him. Now you know how to get him off, so keep that in mind for the finale. In the meantime, allow him to escape while you try new things. Take your time with it. Sidebar: don't get offended if he pulls your hair, it only means he loves it!
5.) Play with your mouth - pull your lips into a firm circle, this technique will probably make a popping sound, but don't soften your lips to avoid the noise, he'll love it. Be sure to either spit or keep your mouth extra wet. Also, be so careful not to graze him with your teeth.
6.) Try hard suction - try to create the vacuum effect. In order to this successfully you have to mimic a vacuum, meaning maintain a tightness and pressure in your lips and mouth. Most men like to be sucked hard, so don't scared to do so, a lot of times he'll appreciate the strong sensation.
7.) Don't forget the head - the head is the most sensitive part of the penis, so don't neglect it! Give it s few quick licks in between your moves or take it back as far as you can so he can get the "deep throat" sensation. This is a technique that improves with time, but while you're trying, expect to gag a time or two.
8.) Use your hands - your hands should never be lying dormant! For starters, the best thing to do is stroke the shaft while you're sucking, or hold the base. Do not put the man's parts in a choke hold, a firm grip is best. Once you get him good and worked up, use your hand to draw his shaft into your mouth and keep your hand closely in front of your mouth while you stroke.
9.) Do some ball play - testicular play heightens his arousal. But first, apply little pressure to see if he's likes it. Most guys like to have their balls cupped while you're sucking. But don't go pressing on the actual balls, just pull the sac downward and away from his shaft. This is also a way to give your jaws a break, lick and suck his testicular area while you stroke the shaft.
10.) Don't stop - when you start to get the feeling he's about to climax, whatever you do, don't stop! In fact, it's best you quicken the pace a bit and keep doing exactly what your doing, don't switch anything up orally! At most, play with his balls. Make sure you moan or hum a little bit for vibrational stimulation also. Swallowing or spitting is a completely personal decision, but your man will be 2 minutes short of proposing.

How to control your gag reflex

2009-06-08T21:50:00.002-04:00

Here's a little useful info i came across :)

Step 1First, understand that your gag reflex is a reflex action. find out where your gag reflexes start. Starting from the tip of the tongue, to where you first begin to gag, is how far it stretches. Once you can put a finger on that, (no pun intended) you can begin learning how to control it.

Step 2The gag reflex is a contraction at the back of your throat which stops objects entering the throat except as part of normal swallowing. But, you can re train your reflexes, so that your mate will obtain the utmost pleasure. sometimes you may have the feeling of loss of control and panic. Don't panic.. Remember it's training your reflex and tongue to do something different then normally.

Step 3Here's how to make it so you never upset your partner by gagging again; You will slightly enhance something you already do everyday! Brush your tongue right where your gag begins. People you will gag. It will be nasty,not for long, but just think of the many compliments you will get! Spend about 10 seconds brushing that area (and gagging), and call it a night.
Repeat the process over the next few nights in the exact same spot. You'll notice you gag less each time you do it.
Increase the brushing area. Once you can touch your toothbrush on that spot without gagging, it's time to move the toothbrush further back. Try brushing increasing the brushing behind where your gag used to begin. This is your new starting point. Repeat the process as you did in the first spot.
Continue moving the brush further. Each time you move the toothbrush back, your gag has been desensitized in the previous spot. Keep moving it further and further back until you've reached the furthest visual point of your tongue.
Be persistent. This whole process should take approximately a month to complete. When it's all said and done, you should be able to take in more than 6 inches, and an object may reach the back of your throat without you gagging.
Once you have practiced, keep the lips, and throat moist. Now that you won't gag, your partner will immediately notice the change!
Remember, practice makes perfect. Don't do something you feel uncomfortable in doing. This is for those wanting to spice up their love life, and make sure they are pleasing to the fullest capacity.

Step 4Finally, After controlling your reflex, you can then move to technique. Usually a person can't become good at performance because he hasn't control the gag. The ability to evenly saturate your mouth without any saliva spilling over is what will glorify your partner. Moisture, plus, gag control=Happy partner! But most of all, communication is the key to a good relationship, Use your mouth in every way, that's what is there for!

RIP BILL....

2009-06-04T13:25:00.002-04:00

Omg so today i get a text that is just some little bits of news, and actor david carradine passed away!

I cant beleive it, most of everyone knows him as bill from kill bill, but those of us who watched tv in the early 90's or so know him as qui chan kane from Kung-fu the legend continues and from the original kung-fu from the 70's or so. He was the actor that replaced Bruce Lee as the lead because they wanted someone that the audience could relate to more than a complete asian.. Some intresting news however is that he wasnt even half asian at all! I remember when I first found that out, I was a little bit shocked lol I thought he was at least some like a quarter or semi asian but nooo hes not even a little bit lol. This news shocked the hell out of me because I had no idea! Then I read a update that says that a maid found him in his room with a rope around his neck and body!!! I hope that he didnt comit suicide, that would really suck major ass! Im sure no one knew that he was sad or whatever, but I know that it does suck soo much because he will be missed soooooo much by everone; old fans and new ones alike will miss him!

Rest in peace... :(

That is all..... for now :)

Sooo much random thoughs rolling around!

2009-06-02T20:59:00.005-04:00

Ok, so here we go; the rant is a commin! First and fore most, I read soo many different things online that Ive just got to mention on here lol.
So have you heard about that chick from miachel jacksons thriller video? The girl who was in the blue leport print pedal pushers and jacket with red heels? Well this slow fool decided that she wanted to sue him. Its like really NOW, now after all this time, you want to sue someone over not getting paid for anything lol. Its like damnit, did you smoke up all the "money" you got the first time around? Im so confused on this, also one of the producers, who did thriller and black or white; john landis, he is suing jackson because he never got paid for all the videos he did that brought all that money in. See he has a case, cause he did work, that bish didnt do a damn thing but walk the hoe stroll in the video lol. Moral of this story, you want cash you bet at start dont wait lol

Next rant if you will lol, ya boy diddy, need i say more? Yes damnit, soooo seems like he will snatch up all your monies if you mess with him. I mean really REALLY?? Why do people still mess with this fool? He charges people so many fees so that they dont even know what is happening and at the end of the day they wonder where their money is. So many artists were on badboy that use to be good and lordie they fell off: 112, total, faith, new edition, mase, case, shyine, danity kane, donny klang, you know day 26 is next, he gets so out of pocket that he thinks that hes like god's gift to the world! The hold he has on all the artists is some what short of amazing because they beleive whole heartedly that he is going to be the one who brings them to the top.. Its like noooooooooooooo stupid, a real record label will work with you and try to come up with things that will keep you relevant; ie: a new video, photo spread (with your clothes on) apperences (in worth wild places) things of that nature. Thats also saying that you are an artist with a good record, like you have your club bangers and also your balads and what not but its also saying that people love you as a artist, and that they beleive in your vision of your music. A good artist is hard to find however because most people just want to put out one club banger get the up front cash for it and run a muck with the money they get and forget that when the song is played out that they still have to pay that money back some how, so its like ok, why not try to be the producer and writter for the song, come up with a concepet for the video and get a credit for that, so that you have money comming in from all angles and get to cut out some people in the process.. I figure the more people you get to cut out of the pie the bigger slice for you right??? But no, the kids out there today are more inclined to just get that one hit, which for the most part makes no sense because they have never finished highschool or grade school for that matter and have noclue how to write about anything but getting money or some video ho or whatever the case may be, ok so after you come up with one stupid hit, you have the kids figure, ima make a video that doesent match the song what so ever but ima still get money! NO, you arent and you know why, because if you didnt write the song then the writter is going to get money, if you didnt come up with the concept of the video then that person is going to get moeny, if you have no style what so ever at all, then your stylest get the money, if you have had NO hand in making the video, then you get nothing, and damnit if you work for diddy then all his shit is in the video and FOR DAMN SURE YOU GET NOTHING!

Most people are so starved for attention when they become a artist on badboy that they are willing to say yes to anything, which is how they get you! Its like, you dont read the small print huh? Ok, so if you dont like I know you dont then im going to put all the legal shit i can stick you with in there because i know you wont read it, its also because maybe you cant understand that im going to put a 2 million dollar retainer on it so that if you break your contract with me, you still owe me 2 million plus 5 albums that i know you are never going to make, im going to half ass market you and have you everywhere so that everyone is sick of you so that when your second album comes out, no one is going to buy it and you owe me THAT money as well! But all of this is in the fine print, and I know you arent going to read it, so I will also let you use my car in the video, and I will do you the favor of being in your video and letting you use my house in the video, but what you dont know is that Im going to charge you a fee for all of that as well, and get a big fat tax write off on it and you arent going to see a dime, because its all tied up in the fee's ive charged you! See I know i can keep this up on the entire album because you didnt read the fine print, but its ok, you can come with me on vacation, I will make it better and you will be able to make more money off of the next album I do with you, but this time im going to be on every song, and in EVERY video with you so that I know i can use what ive got to make it better. If more artist read the fine print when dealing with bad boy shit like THIS wouldnt happen, but they get sooo sucked in to working with the all mighty diddy that they just go ok, i will sign!

People wonder why I dont listent to every thing, its because I like REAL artists that have TALENT and know better than to do silly things like that. My point here however is that, if more people who want to "make it" in the music business read the fine print and have GOOD people around then with their BEST intrest in mind, this fool wouldnt be able to suck the life out of them like he does on the regualr!!

I think I missed my calling in life to be an entertainment lawyer lol or maybe just to spread the word lol idk :)

That is all.............. for now :)

ps forgive the miss spelled words..(no spell check where I am lol)

What do you beleive in, and can you prove it?

2009-04-27T19:39:00.002-04:00

Soo Kiddies, as some of you may know, I was talking to a guy who I thought had some common sense, but it turned out to be false! I mean the ONLY ONLY plus part about this guy was that he knew how to put down some good oral. I swear he could teach a class on it lol. So Im thinking we could work a little something out, but then today we meet up, kinda last minute and head down town. We go to south street sea port, while we are walking we go past a verizon store, I think and there is a AG (agressive) girl who works there behind the counter near the window, so hes like ehh, and im like what's wrong? He goes I just dont get it, and im like dont get what? (honestly idk what was wrong lol ) he's like I dont get why some women want to look like men, and im like oh you mean the ag? He's like the what, and im like the ag, it means agressive, and im like well she wants to look like a guy so what, like what really is the problem. So we sit down because im tired and now ima little pissed because I dont get what the big deal was about the girl, (btw, she was kinda cute!) so I ask, well what's your view on all gay people? He just starts going off with all this stupid shit about how gay people are just as bad as pedofiles, (what!!) Im like they are two different things, very different things. Hes like gay people arent people, and they dont deserve the same rights as ANYONE else, and im like this is the STUPIDEST SHIT IVE EVER HEARD IN MY ENTIRE LIFE! Hes like gay people shouldnt have kids and that they are brainwashing the kids to be just like them, and im like what the hell are you talking about, every child deserves love from WHOEVER thier parents are, im like gay people are fighting for righs just like black people have been for like forever. Hes like its not the same thing and im like yes it is, its exactly the same thing. His compairsons were just aweful, he compaired gay rights to pedafiles, and people who want to marry thier animals, or whatever and im like i feel sorry for you, because that's not a healthy outlook on life. Hes like oh im not going to change for anyone, and im like you are too fuckin old to be such an ass, (hes 45 btw) I mean i really feel sorry because how can you be so closed off from great people and say some doumb shit like oh i dont mind gay people but they need to stay out of my way because they hit on me, i mean really REALLY! So then after ALL of that, hes like oh can we work past this, im like nigga are you high? im like no, hes like ok, well see you later, and leaves. Good riddence to bad rubbish!!!

Its High time, I look else where anyway, stupid people bore the shit out of me anyway!

That is all....................for now :)

What happens when Diddy is your boss?

2009-04-17T22:45:00.002-04:00

So yesterday I'm watching the finale part one or whatever to making the band 4. Danity kane of course is done and diddy has sunk his claws in to dawn and is keeping her in her contract. He claims "if" he puts danity kane back together, she will be the only on left. He just releases everyone out of their contracts and she of course is in shock.

So poor Andrea leaves and went back home i guess, and dawn is like i don't understand why this has to happen. I watched this and I'm like this man will rape everyone who is on his label. I figure that if he see that he can make money off of someone then he will keep them as much as possible. But there have been other groups who have been on that label and have said the same thing. He charges each artist money for whatever he does in THEIR video, I don't think that the artist realize that they get charged soooo much money for him to just stand the hell there!

In the end, however they see SOME money, which isn't much at all because he takes a fee, and then everyone else takes a fee so if the artist isn't the writer or producer or something besides the one singing the freakin song they are just going to be screwed!

Danity Kane-- rip 2009 oh well, guess it sucks to make the band huh?

That is all.........for now :)

Advice....because lord knows I MUST never know what im talking about!

2009-03-29T21:45:00.003-04:00

So kiddies yesterday was advice day in the land of my life! One person after another was asking me for relationship advice, I swear it must have been a full moon yesterday or something.

One friend who i speak to on and off again some time for a good while, was telling me of his problem he had. I was asking him how everything was with the girl he was seeing now, because he seemed sooooooo happy with her, he im's me back and tells me that they broke up! That caught me sooo off guard because the last time we spoke he was going to go visit her and was so excited about it. I've never been so shocked in my life lol. He told me that she was "confused" (child im still confused over the situation) about their relationship I guess. I mean he said that they had been talking since September or so and had made plans for them to finally see each other face to face and were both really happy about it. So he tells me he he goes to see her for her birthday and he got her a present and some flowers and what not (hes a good boy :) ) all the right stuff and they spend like a week together or so, and that they were really happy to be together. They went out and talked and he met her family and people and such, he said that they shared some very special time together and what not, and i guess after he got back she said she was confused on what happened and their relationship.

So i was trying to offer him advice on the situation, but truthfully Im still confused on what happened. I don't understand how they both were on the same page as to what the plans were and she gets confused! I mean I really don't know lol, now child don't get me wrong, hes a great person, and im happy we're friends (i still don't know how that happened lol, that's another story lol) I try to tell him not to worry, and don't dwell on something that doesn't work because maybe she just wasn't ready for someone who is as good as he is or who is as focused on a relationship as he is, idk!

Now on to the other people I HAD to give advice to. So my brother,(hi poopoo) went to the barber shop yesterday and got his hair did lol, he sees MY EX there. (why, like he just didn't have NOWHERE ELSE TO GO GET A SHAPE UP) So my brother is trying to be nice and have small talk while he waits to get a shape up, and my ex is talking about life and whatever, and his job and what not. So he starts telling him that he and his girl are on the rocks because of they aren't on the same page with moving or getting an apartment or something that WE HAD ALREADY HAD A CONVERSATION ABOUT.

All of that just proves that I was freaking right on valid points in the relationship that crashed burned and died, and he was WRONG!!!! Hes telling him that most girls think of them selves and that they are selfish and blah blah blah, so my brother was like well.... you kinda lost something good when we broke up, and you started messing with little girls and what not, which is true because if you mess with girls who are young their mind sets are something different then WOMEN who are older; all of which is TRUE!!!!

So later in the night after I figure out how to sync my blue tooth with my phone (trust me it was a issue) I get a phone call from MY EX! (lord why) so hes like "oh can i get some advice" !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Im like wtf is up with TODAY of all days?? So im like what is it? Hes starts up with, how are you and blah blah, then hes like oh I need to know what would you say my issues are or something to that effect, and im like what? Im like I cant answer that, im like who the hell wants to know. All these tell me about my self questions and shit that is soooo annoying. So I later find out that him and his ex are on the rocks and that they are talking about shit that we talked about and what not and he came to realize NOW that I was right about how to try to compromise with someone if you see a future with them or want to have a future with them.

Lord he got laid in to yesterday, I was like well you don't know how to compromise and you think of your self and are very selfish in that way. I said I think that he isn't ready for a serious relationship with ANYONE, and needs to work on him self, I said that he has a fear of commitment, and that he claims he ready for something real when lord know's he isn't. I also told him that if he wants to have a relationship with any one he has to be willing to listen to the other person and give them time to open up to him, Im like you cant force people to tell you about them selves it just wont work out that way. I also stated that things that aren't relevant to the current relationship should be talked about, like if it honestly has nothing to do with the current situation then it shouldn't be brought up. He really got told about him self and I think that everything I said is hitting close to home because, its starting to make sense and its like wow your right...

Huh, I think the obvious will slap you down one day!!!!!

That is all for now.................. :)

Yes I dream in color.

2009-03-26T19:45:00.003-04:00

So last night I had a dream that was all over the place. It started out in this post office/ wedding chapel, idk. The bride was wearing all this white including her makeup and the carpet was white, I swear it was so freaking tacky. So I see the look on the groom's face and even though I cant see his face I can tell that he really doesn't want to be there, so im like lets go, lets just go and get out of here and we can find a court or some place and get married on our own. So we leave the place and run outside and hop in a cab. We're driving and driving in this cab for what seems like forever, we keep passing different places and im telling the groom "well, we could have stopped there or there" but we keep going past everywhere. While we are driving, I keep looking back and I say; I swear that the mother of the bride is after us and im starting to get uneasy about it, he looks back and tells me that its not her. It makes me relax after some more time, we fall in to a very relaxed state and we start to give each other the eye (lol) We end up having oral sex in the cab (most of which was on me) lol. We finally end up in a city some place and stop in front of a apartment building, we get out and go in to this building, we end up in this wonderful apartment which is marble, jade and glass (i know weird right lol) everywhere in the place there is running water, its falling down like rain and its running out like fountains. There is another couple there and they are friendly towards us. (The guy looks like the guard from the mummy returns i think is name is ardis farr or something like that i forgot, and the girl looks like she is Hawaiian) Like they are a really good looking couple, they tell us all about the apartment and what its like there. We all sit and relax in the house and they tell us about the security system, which isn't armed, so I tell them we should at least arm it so that we are save. We figure out the freaking thing and we go to arm it and then darts start to shoot out of the walls and we are all ducking and running around so that we don't get hit.

I swear it was a crazy dream that made no freaking sense what so ever!

That is all..........:) for now (maybe)

Movies.... Some times too late?

2009-03-21T23:28:00.003-04:00

As if this shit couldn't have come too late! The tag line is even WORSE: New model original parts...really REALLY!!!! Now if you didn't read my rant about the third instalment of THIS movie then for the love of god go find it and read it but........if you didn't, then let me re-cap all of this for you with photos of course!!!

This is the first movie, which introduces us to a very new sexy vin diesel, with some kick ass cars in this movie. The story with this is cop (paul walker) goes undercover to bust up a ring of thieves who are stealing from mac trucks on the road and no one can figure out just how its being done. Paul walker has to gain dom's (vin diesel) trust so that he can get in to what they do. Long story short, at the end they find out he's (paul walker) is a cop, and he lets everyone go.

This is the second movie where paul walker goes to Miami after letting dom and everyone go. He (paul) goes down there to start his life over after giving up the badge and trying to put all that stuff behind him. The fed's how ever catch up with him since he's technically on the run and offer him a deal, help us get a agent out from some mob boss or whatever and we wipe your slate clean. Paul needs help so he knows someone else who can help him out and get his slate whipped clean as well, this is where tyreese comes in to the picture (lord why??) Together they manage to gain the guys trust enough to get in to his gang and do some jobs for him. Paul's other friends however ( ludacris and davon aoki) are in Miami and they run street races and such for cash. Long story short with this horror of the movie, is that only paul walker's character was in THIS MOVIE and this is the second part, they take down the boss, save the agent, and tyreese and paul snatch up monies to start their own garage. Side note: Vin disel as well as the other main characters AREN'T in this movie, so it made no sense to make it!

But wait there's more.............

This garbage! I didn't even watch all of this movie, so I still kinda have no clue what really happened, but I will tell you that DRIFTING isn't a sport, this movie was straight trash! Everyone who did see it who i talked to hated it because it had NOTHING NOTHING to do with any of the movies BUUUUUUUUUUUUUTTTT............why was vin diesel at the END of this one????? I swear soo random...

Now you are caught up to this one god willing this movie will be better than the last and almost as good as the first, but pfft idk!

That is all.............for now :)

So you wanna be on top...but at what cost?

2009-03-15T23:52:00.003-04:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VEPN3CehhHE&eurl=http://www.dlisted.com/&feature=player_embedded

So today (3/15/09) one of my friends chantell was telling me about how she went to a casting call for americas next top model. Well the next season Miss me me me I I I, Aka Tyra Banks, said that the girls could be five seven and under! Humfp! (Can anyone say ratings) So they have a casting call yesterday (3/14/09) at the ass crack of dawn. They had NO order what so ever so ofcourse people started to act a damn fool!

There were girls trying to cut the line and start fights it was so out of hand. I never understand why people want to go on that show, not one of the "models" that really wins gets anything worth a damn thing! They all whore them selves out and it still dosent work. How sad for them :(

That is all..............for now :)

DIY, Do it your self?? I guess that's what's up? lol

2009-03-05T19:15:00.002-05:00

I swear when people have too much time on thier hands! I mean you have to kinda give it to whoever came upwith that some kind of credit because THAT DID TAKE some kinda thought in to make that. I swear some times you just have to wonder why just why come up with that when you can buy a better one because godforbid the shit breaks and you have to make that alll over again lol

That is all........:) for now!

Some times the possible should be impossible.

2009-02-25T17:22:00.003-05:00

(I really like this photo, its trippy!)

So yesterday kiddies, Im at work and my ex shows up and surprises me at work and im like hey what's up. Hes like hey i saw you greeting and i decided to come back and say hi and what ever so im like oh ok hey.
We talked for al little bit because im at work i cant really talk a whole lot so im like well meet me after work you know just to be nice to finish our talk.

So I leave work and hes outside and we walk towards my house and hes talking about work and what not and im being nice an listing as much as i can because we all know that my ear is messed up so its hard for me to hear folks lol. We get to my apartment and we are standing in the hallway talking and hes going on about his life and im making jokes, he tells me that he has a girlfriend (lol) and hes the man in that relationship (lol, i guess before he wasn't in ours) lol So ofcurese im being nice and im like oh ok, im wishing him well on everything because don't get me wrong im trying to be the bigger person and be like well i hope that everything works out and that you don't put anyone through all that drama that happened in that relationship. We did discuss some major points that didn't help in that relationship so its like whatever. I really feel that deep down in side he wanted me to get mad at the fact that he had someone else (i didn't really care cause he did say she was the jealous type which isn't good but hey whatever) He did however say he was sorry for how things ended and that's what has caused me to write this blog today.. Some times I feel that things like that are just so late cause its been months since we've broken up like a good long time, and i feel that all of this came out because he has someone new so its like hmmm i still don't care, because as far as im convinced that relationship died that night all that drama happened and the love i did have for him died right along with it!

On to other things!

Is it strange that I had a dream about ray-j and chris brown last night?? How old am i again? (28)lol It made noooooooooooo sense what so ever lol I dreamt that ray j was trying to have sex with me and I didn't want him it was like border line rape (???) but it wasn't like to that extreme? Im like trying to run to the bathroom and get to chris who is in the shower but the shower looks like a big round tube that is covered in fabric, so ray j is like right behind me and im trying to stab the shower and yell for chris to come help me. He (chris) can hear me but cant get out of the shower to help; so ray j grabs me at the door and is holding me by my neck so i kick back and spit at him while im trying to push him off and he bust a nut on my back (wtf?????) Im so confused.... then I finally manage to get in the shower to where chris is and hes hugging me and telling me its ok.(??) he starts to tickle me while we are in the shower and im laughing in real life (lol idk) I know that this dream is ALL over the place lol I really dont get what is going on lol, I'd just thought I'd share with you all lol :P

That is all..............:)

"If she wasnt so pretty would people still care?"

2009-02-19T22:37:00.004-05:00

Today I was reading one of my favorite blogs (dlisted.com) They supposedly have a photo of princess riri, right after chris handed her ass back to her lol. She looks like she got in a girl fight and lost lol. But I digress, I went to the comment section and there was a comment that said: "Im a man and im not trying to be a dick but if she wasn't so pretty would people be this pissed or still care?"

I totally agree with that statement, because if she wasn't so "unique" looking (i use the term very very loosely) no one would give a damn, they really wouldn't, if she was some round the way girl people would be like "oh how sad" that's it. Nothing else would be said about it. If the girl looked like whoever, and the head line was like "Oh chris brown beat some chick in the industry" no one would give a single fuck, but because its riri (who looks like she works a last nerve) people are all bent out of shape.

It shows you just how much people put the value on lots of beauty vs anything else. It really annoys me to no end that If this was anyone else, I truly believe that no one would give a fuck!

That is all........:)

Young, Older, and Bi-polar men

2009-02-16T20:45:00.004-05:00

(The reason for that photo is because in the movie mina harker (peta wilson) was a like few hundred year old vampire and a very younger Tom sawyer liked her and he was sweet towards her even though he was tooo young for her.)

So on a chat I go to that I manage to stumble across one day when i was surfing though my phone. Its this little stupid chat called airg.com Im convinced these people came up with it all work for boost Mobile, cause 99% of the people on there have those phones. I still dont know what half the terms are on there because idk what a hook up means, its a phone term that has to deal with boost mobile. Most of the people on there are kids, like kid kids, and they want to trade pics and all this stuff. Im not the one to trade photos, the ones you see are the ones you get and that's it!

Now 99% of the time, there are only perv's and "others" who want to talk to me about not a damn thing what so ever. There are a few friends that Ive really made on there. FRIENDS NOT FANCLUB but there are some really interesting friends that ive made, like one guy bless his heart, hes 17 (yes i know i know) now dont get me wrong he's as cute as he want to be but damnit if he isnt soo young, and he has a foot fetish. lol like a really bad one lol the first thing he said to me to get my attention was what color are your feet and what color are your toenails lol. After I had stopped laughing i really wanted to know about why he had a foot fetish and he just really liked feet.

After that, I realized that he is a real sweet heart so I just go along with it about the whole foot thing lol.

There are other guys that I talk to that seem okish lol and what i mean by that is that they are ok to talk to because lord knows that the one i have some little bit in common with would have ISSUES and I do mean ISSUES. HE HAS 6 KIDS (why o lordie why) been in jail, knows how to do EVERYTHING cause he's just one of those people that likes to learn everything, but also loves being a dad. That's just too much in one shot. I mean damn that's all to the left and what not.

The other one that's left i swear he's bipolar lol, I cant even with that one lol.

When the past keeps comming back..OR just too much free time?

2009-02-16T20:12:00.004-05:00

So I recently got a email from my bestfriend about how some guy she new from years ago who I guess at one point they were friends and i guess they use to discuss all the problems he had with his wife. Now what it seems like is that he must have took his kindness for her liking him, Idk, but what I feel is that people can't just give a shoulder to lean on nowa days because people want to take their freakn arms!

The email she sent to everyone the guy just seems to have went off the deep end. Like I said before, Idk what happened for sure, but if you are someone who is married to someone and you are having problems its OK to talk to someone about it, like to get it off their chest, it truly is. I always feel like if something is working your nerve its good to get it off your chest by writing it down or at least telling someone that you trust. But also you have to remember that damnit they are your friend and they trust you not to go off the fucking deep end!

That is all for now...............:)

Chris Brown, gulity until proven innocent???

2009-02-14T01:32:00.004-05:00

So by now EVERY ONE has read on what "happened" between chris brown and riri (hmfp)Since I wasn't there I can only offer my own opinion on what "happened". I really am someone who people watches and I always say that any time I've seen photos of them they look so out of sync.(mind you these are "candid" photos) (hmfp)I mean real couples have some sort of feelings that translate on to print and yet these two never did at all! I always said riri looks like the type that is so over bearing or very emotional. There have been reports that she's said that she cant stand to be with out people she "loves" ok, see that's understand able but when you have such a horrible disposition than there is just so much someone can take. Now don't get me wrong, I don't mean its ok to freaking beat a woman, not at all, but if someone is working your last fucking nerve and you are like stop, stop stop and they don't and you are just backed up against the wall you lash out.

Now we all also know that she has been reported to be a very jealous person. Ok, so if you are "dating" someone (hmpf) who is famous as well and their ENTIRE fan base is women, what the hell do you expect!?!?!?! They are going to have fans and what not!! And what I really think is that chris just got tired of it all, I mean this girl looks like she is very very hard to please, and the "supposed" girl that he got a text from is some random chick. If I was him I would want some random jumpoff cause it would be less stress!!! Plus hes only 19, (im 28, and some times you just don't need a relationship)

What really kills me however is that, the media and almost everyone has said that poor chris is to blame, has anyone ever thought maybe just MAYBE that she's the one to blame??? I swear its not fair, they have even pulled ALL his music off the air, music off the shelf's everything yet I hear her shit all over the place, Im sick of it! There are people who agree with me, and I know that we area right, until all the facts come out about this if they ever do Im going to believe that she is just a jealous self centered girl who will cry wolf until everyone will get sick and tired of her.

Face it Princess RiRi, your time is up its 14:59!

That is all.......For now..:)

Learn something new every day!

2009-01-18T23:19:00.003-05:00

An underground sexual fetish which involves one partner (the feeder) feeding the other, both to obtain sexual arousal and to encourage weight gain in the feedee. Feederism can vary in nature, from a consensual act between two people who mutually appreciate a larger body type, to non-consensual abuse, which may involve force-feeding and bondage and is undertaken with the intention of fattening up the feedee to the point of immobility and total dependence. The weight gained can also vary froma few pounds to hundreds, whilst some feeder relationships are not undertaken with the purpose of weight gain at all but for the enjoyment of food in an intimate context. Most feedees are female (BBW or SSBBW) whilst the feeders tend to be FA males, although this is not the case, and gay/lesbian feeder relationships are not entirely unheard of.

Now see, I didnt even know this fetisish existed! I mean lord knows Im in to alot of things but some times I draw the line.. This right here is just tooooooo much. I cant stand to really hear people eat let alone some times see people eat so there would be no way in hell I could do this. Now dont get me wrong, because I support everyones fetishs and what not but whooo lord lol.. Ive seen photos of this and lol its too much....

That is all.............:)

We lost some TRUE fierceness!

2008-12-25T19:45:00.002-05:00

Man today is Christmas and I sadly guess Eartha Kitt was just too much fierceness for this world because heaven called her back! This sucks so much, I LOVED HER! She was one of the best people ever. She was the best catwoman EVER I mean she did the cat purrr, you cant just make that up talent like that comes NATURALLY!!!!!

She was on the list of the many fab women I want to be like. She will be truly missed!!

Do People Ever Think?

2008-12-13T17:02:00.003-05:00

So kiddies here I am sitting on my couch and im talking online to some guy online who has managed to find me... Get this his name is Maxx.well lol (yeah right) Im always skeptial of random dudes with good names. Im also skeptial of random good looking guys who think that they have a dominate side and "know" what they are doing lol.

The guy im wasting like 20 minutes on right now says he lives in the uk, but his profile says that he lives in georgia ( do you see the confusion) then it says that he is 32 and that's it. Like there is no other information to give. So you all know that im sitting around asking questions. I never understand why people always want a freaking phone number to talk on the phone about NOTHING. I have had too many times where RANDOM people call me about nothing lol. Ive had times where peoples girlfriends have called and there wasnt any reason for them to do so. Im too freakin old to have some birds cluck on my phone about why's ur number in my mans phone when the real question should be asked to your man! (Think about it) I pay my own damn phone bill so no one has the right to ask me who's numbers are whos, shit until u pay the bill then stay the hell out of mine lol.

I personally cant stand talking on the phone, (unless i know you) only because what is so great about the phone getting hot and you chainging ears every few minutes to here someone go on and on about nothing. If somone really wants to get to know you then they should know you the way you want them to know you. I personally dont mind getting to know someone throuhg emails or text instead of a phone right away. There are lots of people who are like that, its more of being safe, and its more of trying to see who really wants to know you.

I also never really undersand how these specail people seem to be drawn to me, there is another guy who is really really good looking, I mean he is too sexy.. I think that he is a little border line full of him self and that is something that I will never deal with. I've had a bad experence with it. Anyway, this guy think that he can get anyone to do what he wants, how he wants and when he wants. People who know me knows that dosent work espcially with me bacause you can never dominate a person with a very dominate personality. I just doesent work. Now what was wrong with him is that he was in the mood and he has buttons that are very easy to push, I mean like way beyond easy. When this guy gets in the mood its very easy to get him hard and to get him to damn near bust. But he really gets off on when someone is talking to him on the phone. I guess there are girls who must call him all the time and tell him how much they want him or whatever.

Im different, my buttons arent easy to press, we all know that. lol Granted that guy knows what he's doing , he can turn you on like no other, like you just want to hand your panties over with a little bow on it lol. I think he knows that he has that gift. Maybe its something in the eyes hell idk, all I know is that it works, but it will just get you off. Me being the ever dominate person will never just sub over to anyone, no body part of mine belongs to anyone but me. I was under the impression I had made that clear to him but i guess when you really want sex then you dont listen.

That will work for them girls who dont have a clue but shit not for me. I could tell that the guy was really worked up, so i told him that i know deep down some where in the back of his mind he must have a memory of some silly girl begging himjust begging him to bust that nut already. I know its true, because he seems like the type that will have some girl do that. SoI kept at it and kept repeating my self over and over and over and he finlly said brb. I really think he got someother silly girl to call him unless he went to take care of that.

btw I teach classes on how to get men off with no issues lol

That is all........:)

Samples in music!

2008-12-01T18:15:00.002-05:00

So today, I was reading one of my favorite blogs and they had a youtube video of kanye west that shows all or almost all of the songs that he's done has had samples of like EVERYTHING that hes listen to when he was younger.

So I watched the WHOLE thing (ten minutes of my life i cant get back) and the person was showing that not only did he sample (which means take SOME OR A PIECE) of the song he takes the WHOLE damn thing! Now I read the comments that people were leaving and MOST like 99% of them were saying that he is a genus and that hes wonderful and all that shit. Now for the NORMAL people out there we all know that taking samples is OK, but that doesn't mean that you have a REAL talent! Its one thing to take some of the song and make it your own with YOUR own words and whatever or try to reinvent the sound of something but its a whole other thing to take the song that made someone famous and claim that its yours and that its something you pulled out of the sky. Some one also said that hes full of him self which we all know is sooo true!

I watched the whole video and i saw that prince was one of the artists who he's sampled from, now we all know that prince for damn sure wants his money for any song that he lets people sample. I'm saying that all he does is take the entire song and either slows it down or speeds it up and then rants over it and calls it a hit. Then he has the nerve to bitch and moan about how he didn't get this award or that award and yell at the public when we tell him to sit the hell down already!

****Note to kanye: DAMNIT WE ARE TIRED OF YOU SHUT THE HELL UP AND SIT THE FUCK DOWN!****

That is all..........:)

How do they keep finding me pt2

2008-11-25T21:35:00.004-05:00

Ok so right I managed to logg on to myspace today because I put up my random nail art that im trying to do and I manage to get a friend request and who do you think it is...... Its my "brothers" OTHER baby momma! Im really starting to think how do they keep finding me? I mean I really dont mind because they are all cute kids but its not like I can offer them anything lol.

Im really happy to see all those kids are good and what not but it makes me sad because my brother is such a freaking bum. I really wonder how it is that he's most of learned it from his father. I often wonder if they have spoken to his father because he IS all these kids grandfather and I would hope that he would want to see all of them!

pfft I really dont know!!!

That is all.........:)

*******UPDATE***************
So after having a conversation with the mother, I got to see photos of my neice. She is so out of the box ( just like me yay) lol She seems like really cool person. I was telling her mother that i only remember meeting her way back when her daughter was little and I also told her that I dont talk to any of those people so there is butso much information that i could tell her and what not. but she did tell me so much! Seems like my "sister" had her wedding (which i WASNT) invited to at her fathers house. Mind you thats only like 2 hours away from me! Ive lived in the same place for years and all of the sudden noo one knows where i am (whatever) I personaly was offended! but I digress lol. Im really happy that I got to see photos of all the kids because its good to know that some folks in this family are ok-ish lol

that is all.....:)

How do they find me?

2008-11-10T20:19:00.003-05:00

I always want to know how people find me? Some times I'm just online doing nothing major and boom a I'm will pop up and I'm like who is this. Well the other day one pops up and I'm like who the hell is this because I didn't recognize the name. It turned out to be my brother's baby momma well, she is the mom of 2 of this 3 kids. Lucky for me I saw the photos of these two kids and I faintly remember my other niece. I'm sorry to say that my brother is a freaking ass just like his father. I kept telling the girl that I was sorry because I didn't realize he was such a bad father to his kids. She told me however that she finally got him on the back child support that he owed. I was shocked that he owed so much. I mean she was so happy that she finally got him, I asked her who the hell was helping him pay that because she claimed that she found him in a bar and served him with the papers. Its funny though because you learn how to take care of your kids from your parents so if one your parents didn't really take care of you or had some way in your life and they fucked up in some way boom there you go. His father is no different, (if you all don't know me and my brothers and sisters ALL have the same father and different mothers) he didn't really support his kids like that. I really think he favored my sister and my step sister, I really don't know. but anyway I think its so sad that my brother is such a bad parent lol but shit he got what he deserved!

Now the second part of this post! I met this guy online who damn near stalked me ( god i know) in to talking to him. Now see he's not that bad he has a head on his shoulders but shit he says that hes a VIRGIN! (lol I know right, me too lol) So we keep talking and he really is all over the place with his stuff. Ive pegged him out to be a closet sub who wants to be a dom but also needs to be a sub. I swear its confusing. But dammit all if he wasn't like "oh, I want you to be my first" lol I'm like wtf how the hell do they find me because its like I don't boast my sexual prowls, I just offer everyone information to make THEIR sex lives better because if people i know are having great sex then lord knows I'm happy for them! But damnit if it doesn't get some fools sprung on what they could get lol i have no idea lol....

That is all.......... :)

Re-makes, re-makes and yes you guessed it MORE REMAKES!

2008-11-07T22:43:00.002-05:00

WHY??????? I don't get it, why the hell should they re make this classic? I mean as soon as I heard about the last dragon ( the black folks version of this film) I knew, Damn it I just knew that they were going to freaking remake this movie. I just hope that it wasn't true! But damn it they did it.

Who the hell is going to play Bruce lee?? I mean (RIP) Brandon Lee was still alive then of course they would use him but Idk if he really would want to try to play his father. Its still the fact that they decided to remake this. Oh don't worry because I'm NOT the only one who feels like: just leave the classics alone! there are so many fans who are like why just why, there are somethings we can forgive (the chipmunks, robocop the TV series things like that) but damn it they have gone tooo far with this one. I swear idk who they are going to get to do this movie. I feel like they should just leave THIS ONE alone!

As you can see I'm so at a loss for words on this i got stuck! lol

That is all................ :)

The Training Program....

2008-11-05T22:48:00.002-05:00

For all of those who have read the infamous list that was posed on here, this is the training program that goes before it!
This is for guys that quite aren't right at the list and have to do just a pinch more work at it..

1. Thawed: This means the guy is primed to enter the program, just out of the freezer!

2.Tenderized: This means that the guy has made it out of the freezer and is ready to be taught all the things you want him to learn.

3. Seasoned: This means he has the base knowledge of what you want him to know, now its time to groom him to be out in public.

4. Marinated: This means he knows what he needs to know and can be out in public, now he needs to know how to act around other people in public.

5. Sauteed: He knows how to act in public and has knowledge at this stage he needs to know how to act around friends and maybe, maybe family.

6. Glazed: This means he has made it out of the training program and maybe ready to advance to the Diago Academy!!!!

Work it out!!!...... That is all........... :)

White boys that could get it!! Images!!

2008-11-05T22:02:00.002-05:00

Now you ALL know that I'm not in to white guys, so on the rare occasion that I see one that strikes my fancy that means that he must be FREAKING out of this world! Lets look at the two so far I like on the list!

Brandon Lee He is number one because of the crow, lol I really liked that movie.. If you haven't seen it go see it its great!

Jeff Hardy he is number two because I read their book.. He's a very artistic type which is cool. Its really hard to find cool people like that.

That is all until I find more..... :)

And on the sadder part of life......

2008-11-03T15:27:00.002-05:00

As you all know, I always have some sort of problem that can kind of get fixed or whatever over time. Well this time lord only knows how I'm going to get out of this one... I have now a year to get out of my house! Lord only know how ima pull this out of my ass. What happened for those of you who don't know is that my mom is trying to move on with her life (lol no nothing horrible happened) but her and her boyfriend want to move or whatever, like hell if ima go with them so I have to try to figure out what I'm going to do. Now its not like I don't think of what I'm going to do, its just a lot of things going on at one time. We fall in to a recession, my job looses its mind, I decide not to stay in a relationship that was going no where fast... I feel like if I were to keep things up I still would end up in this situation. What kills me the most is that I've gone through life as to where I've had to pay for everything that's mine, If I had more stable money, I would just rent out my bedroom for 500.00 a month and I would pay the rest. Its not like i can ask my "father" for help. I did before and that didn't go well at all. I wish that I had those type of parents who were more than willing to help ALL of their kids. My "father" has a few kids and he helps them but since we don't have that "father/daughter" relationship I'm the odd man out. Its really taking a tole on me. Ive been really thinking about moving to another state where I can kind of start over where no one knows me lol but I cant since I have no money lol. I'd be damned if I moved down south because the jobs down there are HORRIBLE but the cost of living is soooo low. If I had the money I would suck it up and just live down there or move to the mid west where its easier to live, but I fell like I would have to give up my life. I just feel like I'm running out of options because I don't know what to do. When you have no options and you don't know what's left, what do you do?????

That is all........:

Attack of the 80's movies 2

2008-10-30T16:11:00.003-04:00

Lordie,lordie they are coming out with "The last dragon" again, its a REMAKE!! (shriek in horror) Samual L Jackson is going to play sho-nuff. Now for those of you who haven't seen it in all of is 80's glory, its about a inner city kid. Who lives up town (Harlem for those who don't know) His parents own "Daddy Green's Pizza" Slogan: "Just directa yo feetza to Daddy Green's Pizza" Yes I have this movie on DVD lol. Their son Leeroy (whos nick name by his students is bruceleeroy) is trying to find the "the glow". His master who is some old little Chinese man told him about the glow of knowing what danger is going to come or something like that with out knowing.

Anyway, His little brother is obsessed with vanity's character (Laura) who is the vj of this show called seventh heaven or seven heaven. That boy was in her cloud crowd.... lol. The songs were HORRID! The funny thing is that Laura when she was becoming more and more attracted to leeroy her outfits would become more Asian themed!

This movie was really all over the place, but......... I digress I'm still going to try to see it when the new one comes out lol yay

That is all :)........

Tv time!! whoooooooo

2008-10-11T00:46:00.002-04:00

Guess what's on tv!!!! Atlantic city hookers!!!! O lord my favorite, and we are up to the hooker who has mad rules! She is like: 1. no kissing 2. no kissing on the neck 3. no fucking in the ass 4. no sucking on the chest 5. no fingers in the coach 6 20 minute bj's with a condom. Now there are a few points where I do agree with her on, (# 3,5 and 6) if I was a hooker. Now I do understand that she is a clean hooker and guys want a clean girl because lord only knows who has what out there.

This by far is my favorite one of these hooker ones because it reminds me of the time's I've spent in Atlantic city. The drunk time in the hotel rooms with friends laughing at the tv! Seeing hookers for the first time on the stroll. Lord it was all fun!!!!

I know it was short, but I was having a moment lol

That is all..... :)

Dinner and a Show!

2008-10-10T16:27:00.003-04:00

Every one who knows me knows that when I go out with them we NORMALLY get dinner and a show. What this means is that, we all go grab a bite and then walk it off some which way to wherever our feet take us! Yesterday was nooo different! Me and my broham (keizer) were out in the street. I went to get him from the gym down town because it was just such a nice nite.

So a show starts even before I meet up with him. Some guy who is bike ridding in the street just stops short, I guess he was thinking that the traffic was going to start fast so he just slams on the break, anyway he flips over his bike and lands in the street! Lucky for him the traffic is going in a different direction! So some guy starts to help the guy up and he gets him out of the street!

I wander around, and pick keizer from the gym and we tra-la-la down to the sea port or near it, we are walking and talking like how we normally do. Right about now we are a little peckish, so are are looking for a dune Reade (or how ever you spell it). We are whores for them lol like we were really walking looking for one. Sadly around there all of them close early lol. We were coming up from the two near the sea port that I thought would be open, and we see this guy and girl walking, the girl you can tell went out after work with her boyfriend or whoever the hell he was were walking up the street. It was sooo apparent that she was FUCKED UP, like she was soo drunk he had to put her back in her shoes lol.

We finally get away from them and we go up another street and boom, we see this girl walking down the street and shes crying! So I'm like "oh lawd, dinner and a show", keizer is like what are you talking about. I tell him "look shes crying, and there goes her boyfriend" lol there was a guy walking down the street after her. By then we have given up on the search for a duane Reade that is open. We find however like a cafe that is still open. Finally we get snacks!!! Thank you Jesus!!!

We leave the cafe and we're happy like gummy bears (private joke) and we start to walk up the street headed towards the train station. We are talking and whatnot and there are some people standing out side of some crappy side bar, Keizer tells me that one of guys out side is cute, but I'm not paying attention so I'm like what?!?! We laugh about that and then as we are walking to the corner I glance at this guy who is on the phone. At first glance, I though he was someone else, so I try to look away but I'm getting stuck looking at him (and caught) I try to rip my gaze away from him but hes too cute, I take a quick glance at keizer to say like "oh lordy hes cute" So he finally like locks eye with me and asks us where Williams street is. Now we really don't know where that is and we're trying to help him so I suggest that he talk to the bouncer at that dive like two stores down cause we don't know where that place is. He walks away and I'm like to keizer "oh my god yes, he was toooo cute!" I know I'm having a HUGE bird moment, and I was trying to get it all out but you have to understand he was sooo fly and mixed! (he ranks on the men's list as xavier, if you don't know then look back in the blog to see what I'm talking about!) He was black-uh-neeeese! (lol, private joke #2)

As you know we didn't let that go with out a major conversation lol, so we walk all the way down and make it to the E-Train aka the homeless hotel. We walk in to the train station and I'm like look out, because a bum was laying down at the bottom of the stairs and keizer is startled because he didn't see the foot, he doesn't trip but was like oh my god I thought it was just a foot and that they didn't clean up the rest lol. So that caused a huge amount of giggles from me. We get to the train and are waiting for it to finally show up. After about a few a E train finally shows up and of course its the homeless hotel!! Every other car had a homeless person in it, and to our surprise there is a midget in one car and he is dressed up like a little skeleton, once again I get the giggles lol. We plop down and are on the train so yet another fly-ish man gets on the train, I'm convinced that hes of the gay or maybe a stripper. (He reminds me of a friend who is a stripper) He's just sitting there minding his own business, and this man sits down next to him and falls asleep, not only does he fall out but he falls out on to the stripper man lol. So I'm sitting there trying not to laugh out loud, but I'm crying because its too funny lol.

Me and keizer are there talking to each other in text because we both have on head phones and are laughing so much. The guy finally passes out and falls on the stripper and he wakes him up and then falls out and starts to sleep on this lady who is like wake up.

I swear, it never fails, any time you go out with me you get dinner and a show!!!!! Maybe 2!!

That is all..... :)

TV.......Because Ive started yelling back at it!!

2008-10-07T22:37:00.003-04:00

Right now I'm watching inside American jail. Its mostly where they take folks who have lost their damn minds like from cops and whatnot this is where they go like the in between. Well anyway they had some woman who reminds me of a hooker that I saw on HBO (this special about Atlantic city hookers) I always wondered what happened to her. She had all these rules, its like "damn it you a hooker and you have rules?!?!?!? YOU ARE A HOOKER, hookers don't have rules" That's the point of the hooker, she (supposedly) does EVERYTHING your wife, girlfriend, fuck buddy doesn't do!

She had so many freakin rules it was like she was a high money girlfriend!! Like she said you couldn't stick your fingers in anywhere, you couldn't lick her anywhere, I could understand the condom with the bj because lord only knows who has what but anything after that besides sex, like anything after that is free reign lol. She was even in a room with someone and boom she broke out all these rules and the old man looked like he was going to have a heart attack! lol I never laughed that hard in my life!!!! lol

But all these drunk people just yell and yell at everything, the camera, the cops, the nurse, everyone lol. Its too funny!

What else did I watch??? I managed to catch the semi last part of making the band with that fool diddy, I swear he has enough ego for like a million corner jockeys (if you don't know what that is, just go to your local corner at about 11:30 in the morning and look for just random guys standing there, that's them!) he was bitchen about how he doesn't want Aubrey (or however you spell it) to stay in the group. I mean god you could just tell where that was headed. I mean if you really think about it hes not going to get rid of the few that could sing. Idk because he is all over the place and on the rare occasion that he really has a sensible thought it goes right out the window.

That is all....... for now......... :)

Guess what time it is again kiddies.... Yes its TV time!!!

2008-10-07T00:34:00.003-04:00

As you know i channel surf to combat the time that I sit around on line lol. I managed to catch that train wreck of I want to work for Diddy(pfft no). As most reality shows go one winner is chosen, but in pure diddy fashion this greedy fool took two. The last two were one guy who really deserved the job because he kinda came up like how diddy did and the other person was this lady who looked horrid like she was worn out before her time lol. They both were going at it trying to out do each other like normally people would do, I kind of figured that he would chose the two of them because he has like fifty million people who work for him on that damn show blabbing about how "wonderful" and "amazing" it is to work for someone who I think is so full of him self.

I also managed to catch the end of I love money, we all knew that "Hoopz" was going to win, I mean really, like she had anything better to do. The rest of them have been whoring it up on TV for the longest. I mean I know that vh1 really diggs hard to find people who have no problem with being on TV for way more than 15 minutes. I really think that each show they do they spend about 5 of their 15 minutes, so that comes down to what like three shows? OK, ok, lets take a really good look at it. New York (Tiffany Pollard) was on flavor of love 1, then came back on flavor of love 2, and then she had I love new york and then I love new york 2, thennn New York goes to Hollywood. So she already has 25 minutes of fame... Where did she get the extra ten minutes??? Next we have Real (Armand) and Chance (real name unknown) they were on I love new york then they came back on I love new york 2 then they are going to have their own show called...(Real Chance at Love) Lord only knows what that's going to look like lol. Who else, oh we have pumpkin ( i forgot what her real name is) she was on flavor of love 1 then she was on charm school, then she was on i love money.

You see how they choose characters and whore them out over and over and over again... I really want to know who is giving out all of these 15 minute passes??? I mean really there is but so much left for half of these people to do! There is but so many times you can try to win money if you don't have anything that they can sell off of you. I really think that vh1 sits around with a huge book or at least two and one says guys and the other one says girls and they just snatch up about 10 of each photo throw them up in to the air and what ever order it falls to on the floor is whats the show that they are going to have next!!

I swear I should work for vh1!!

That is all..... :)

Relationships......Why do we put our selves though them???

2008-10-06T01:43:00.003-04:00

For those of you who know me, know about my relationships.. Some people know ALL about then and others know enough of what I tell them. Most people know about the "relationship" that I was in last with someone who really isn't right for me. I know, I know people say that about some relationships but this one is all over the place.

The guy I was with, cared so much about how other people felt about the relationship. I never understand why people care so much of how other people think that their relationship should go. Now don't get me wrong, we BOTH had and have issue, I deal and have dealt with my issues MY OWN way. Never the less I do go in to relationships trusting the person I'm going to be with. Now the other person went in to this relationship with NO TRUST at all. I know that people go though things and have baggage and what ever but still try to give everyone a chance.

This person just takes out the baggage on the next person; I know I have my issues but I write stuff down and am able to let things go faster than other people. I figure why keep it bottled up inside, its not doing anything but making you unhappy and whatnot lol. We both hand our stumbles in the relationship. Honestly there was two major ones and one stupid one, but if you ask him it was three major ones lol, me on the other hand I'm like ehh life happens, no one is perfect, everyone is human.

I think the more you try to be perfect in a relationship, the harder it is for you to act like you have common sense lol. I mean just be you, be the real you. They claim that whoever is supposed to love you the way that you are but sometimes I think that's total shit lol. Id rather be single for a while because I am strong by my self lol, and what I mean by that (because you have to break it down slowly for some people) is I think I'd rather casually date someone then have a full on relationship.

I have lots of friends that I talk to, most of the time its easier for me to talk to them on line since its hard for us to see each other. However this doesn't mean that I'm going to stop knowing them for any ones sake. I will also never live any relationship for anyone, its not fair, for you to be invited in to my world is a honor. That's something that the people who know me hold in very high regard! If you are my friend you are my friend for life.. Now Ive also had the misfortune to meet people and have gone against my better judgement and have been some what friends with them and its bitten me in the ass! Ive learned from that, Ive learned to become a better person and to tell my inner thoughts to my most inner circle which is only 5 people! You really learn what to do and how to grow as a person from knowing if that something is too good to be true then for the most part it probably is!!

That is all..... :)

Lordy, My job, please take it!

2008-10-04T20:23:00.003-04:00

Those of you who know me personally, know where I work. For those who don't know, lol (sorry I don't give it out lol) Well anyway, I use to work like 40 ish hours a week. Recently I started to work 1 day a week, at first I didn't have a reason at all, no I didn't ask to do so the manager just "decided" to have me work like that. I later find out that its because I don't show that I want to be there. It rolls around to review time and I'm like " Tell me any time that a customer has said that they couldn't come up to me and get any information about what ever." Which I know I'm right about. Now don't get me wrong, I'm not saying that I'm the perfect person at that job. NO one is, BUT I'm also not the one who will suck up to move up in some place that that's all they want from the people who work there.

Since I've been there for so long, all the people who know me in there like really know me ask me about different things dealing with work. I'm always ready to help them but I don't make a show about it. That's something I've voiced a lot, like why put on a huge show about how you help people. I'm more of a one on one person , so when I help people they get what they need and if we don't have it then I will give them all of what they need to find it. Apparently that's not enough, I must also act a damn fool towards customers! I don't understand that, I mean why, I've done a lot of shopping, and I know that people don't like to be bothered!

I mean shit let them shop! 99% of the people who come to the store know what the fuck they want! Most of the kids just want to stuff their asses in to super skinny jeans (I'm talking about the boys) Complain about how 50.00 is too much to pay for jeans because it will eat in to their window shopping from their burger king check! I know this because I listen to what people talk about when they are sticking their hands in to the middle of the pile of jeans or tee shirts to get the size that's right on top. Lord its such a waste of time. lol

The only way that any one moves up in there is to be friends with someone who is already high up and hang with them in the oddest of places, to get a high and drunk with them so they can "talk good" about you because you are their friend. How sad is that? Ive even stated that, to some people, how can you work some place and then just because you are bff with someone high up you get to move up with no experience.

Who suffers? I tell you who, the people who work hard have to deal with people who don't know anything at all and still have to help them out to look better! Haaaa lol

That is all.... :)

Do you want to be like Diddy??.. Hell NO I don't!

2008-10-03T22:08:00.004-04:00

You would think that, this post would be apart of TV time... no, it just ran across my mind. Awhile ago I was talking to someone while this mess was in the background. Then I really started to think about that. WHO the hell really wants to be like him, because he "claims" that he never gets a day off and that hes on the top of everything.

First off, damn it hold up, You NEVER get a day off...... If I was you motherfucker, I would never work, that would mean that I was doing something RIGHT. That would also mean that I had great people around me who were also doing something right. Now this fool has this show on vh1 where he finds some poor soul who should work for him and never get a day off. Maybe never get paid. I mean its all to well known that he doesn't pay his people or artists.

Some of the "people" that he had working for him are on the show blathering about how they love to work for him and how they own their own business and all that shit. They know damn well that he works them like they are runaway slaves and they don't get paid shit.

I mean think about it how much worth can you put on experience when all you do is work and have nothing to show for it. So what, you have your own business, but did you really get to live your life out good because you worked like there was no tomorrow just to get there??

Look at Diddy's life, he "has everything" yet he said one time a while back "When I get a day off I don't know what to do, I have no friends and I really have no direction in what to do on a day off" If he really was the Mogul that he claims to be, he would have friends and have so many days off and things to do to live his life because he would have good people to leave his business dealings up to. I feel if I were in a position like that then I would have good people around me to handle my business, I would trust them to know what they are doing because they would have helped me with the business. But shit, not having a day off are you fucking serious lol I would never work lol

That is all.... :) for now lol

80's Movies... Strike back!

2008-10-03T13:39:00.003-04:00

So I was reading on line that they are going to make yet another 80's TV show in to a movie. They are going to make that Yogi bear cartoon in to a movie. Now, I really cant stand that "special" and I use the term loosely bear. He his this crackish addiction to picnic baskets.

I doubt that anyone has really took a good look at some of these cartoons, and how so may of them way back when have gay undertones. Its really awesome though! Since I'm an original 80's kid, I sometimes think about how a lot of cartoons and things had so many double meanings lol. Well with Yogi, what they plan on doing is making it live action like they did with the chipmunks. ( never saw that) Now I just wonder why they want to go do that, did Yogi bear really have a following like that? I know the chipmunks did, lord knows that Transformers did (one of my favorites) I remember when they really did make He-Man in to a movie, it was god awful lol but they still made it.

They also made this other god awful movie, called Howard the duck, that movie was a little on the iffy side because it involved a little duck on lady action lol. I swear things they show us when we are young!

And what would you know it I'm channel flipping and boom whats on??? The last dragon!!!! (another favorite!) Bruce Leroy!! I love it all, today turned out to be a good day lol.

Its so funny when you get older and you watch all these bad movies from when you were younger, and you see all the stuff you thought was soo great lol, like you can see the lines holding up the people obvious stunt people, things in the background lol BIG hair lol. Its all over the place. Its so funny because you know that all the people in the movie, have tried to disown any knowledge that they have ever been in ANY movie. This movie has original 80's fashion all over the place, the stretch pants, the gold lamaye (spelling) the horror! All the mixed Asians (i guess) in this movie. Oh lord its all over the place lol.

I really wonder why people keep bringing back all the 80's movies and re-doing them for the kids today. There is a reason why all the people who have starred in the movies would look at you and go, "I have no idea what you are talking about" lol

I don't understand though why kids today need to bring that horrid fashion back, because when we did it we knew that it would pass, but oh lord!! The kids nowa days oh lord are bringing it back, and in a no where near fashionable way! I have seen so many kids wear the same things in DIFFERENT COLORS and swear that they are original. Ive seen kids come in to the store where I work, with the same outfit on in different colors and sizes and its like ok, I KNOW you all went to the same place and "bought" (and i use that term very VERY loosely) the same outfit and thought it would be really ORIGINAL to wear it all at the same time.

Its so rare to see kids that look original, and I mean original ORIGINAL. Even the kids who you know that take their parents pills to get high ALL look alike. The "trendy" ( i use that term sooo loosely) all look alike, why do all these kids look alike???? Now me, (I'm 27) I don't look like everyone else, I also don't look like I'm 27 (thank god) but I have the common sense to use fashion in my own way to define my own style. I just wonder why people don't try to do that instead of looking like everyone else lol.... confusion!!!

That is all... :)

Once again its TV Time!

2008-10-02T17:11:00.003-04:00

Here I am once again watching the debacle that is the Tyra show, today's subject is open marriages. Some times I wonder why, just why Tyra is so dense. Its hard to believe that anyone could be so lost on a subject. There is a couple on the stage who have a open marriage who are OK with what they do. I personally don't mind what people do everyone has their own way of doing things.

Tyra on the other hand has issues with being a instigator!! I swear has she not learned anything from Jenny Jones?? Making people do and say things that they don't want to do on national TV will come back and bite you on the ass. Sadly on the Jenny Jones show, if you didn't know a guest (a guy) told another guest (another guy) that he was in love with him and what not and that he wanted to be with him. On the show he was like okish with him but he also was being egged on by jenny and the show and what ever so anyway they later find out that the guy killed the other guy because he felt embarrassed by him confessing his love and what ever for him.

Why don't some talk show hosts think that maybe, I should just let them either talk on stage and stay out of it orrr take a non bias opinion to what the situation is. I mean its like how do you not know what the story is going to be about, you have producers and what ever read and TELL you what the story is about before you go to air with it, so how can you sit there and tell the people that you need a answer now and stuff when they are on NATIONAL television... These poor people are like a dear in head lights!

That is all... :)

Food Network

2008-10-02T16:27:00.003-04:00

Most of the time when I'm home, I watch the food network. Paula Dean is my FAVORITE she looks like Mrs. Clause. her husband Michel looks JUST like Santa Clause, we know what he does on his days off lol anyway right now Semi home made with Sandra Lee is on. I cant stand this show. She is such a house wife that you would see in the suburbs. Who the hell has time to throw a cocktail party for "people" in this day and age like EVERY DAY?

If you've ever watched this show, you see her with WHAT EVER outfit she has on in the "kitchen" of which I'm sure is NOT her house; and the background of the kitchen matches whatever she has on. All of that is impossible. Imagine if you were to do that to your kitchen all the time, you would loose your mind! She makes all this stuff which looks OK by the way but I'm saying, she always makes some sort of cocktail. Like she drinks everyday..

I know this post is all over the place but, I'm just ranting lol, she is such a house wife, if i did what she did I would hurt my self lol

That is all.. :)

Random shit i see on line...

2008-10-02T15:34:00.005-04:00

So, I frequent this site (http://youknowyoudeadazzwrong.com/) and it is made by this wonderful person named mo. (don't get it wrong I'm giving praise!!) She as well as other people find photos of people online who are in the club doing god only knows what and the camera people snapping photos of it.

Now when I do go to clubs, I take the time to dress like I have common sense as well as know what my limit is when I drink. (It also helps to have gay friends and people so you don't out out side looking like a damn fool) Anyway, there has been a trend of girls coming in to clubs acting a damn fool. I never understand why you don't think five steps ahead when you do things in a club. I mean really think about it, just because some guy who is maybe high or drunk off his ass is giving you attention because you and your girl started kissing? Do you really want to know that guy. I swear hes the one that will call you at like 2:56 in the morning to "talk" about nothing or to "just hear the sound of your voice" Yeah??! while he is jerking off AFTER coming from the club drunk dialing lol.

I mean ladies really think about it, you claim you want a quality guy but then boom you are interested in this fool who smells a little off and is following you around the club. I think i got a little off subject lol (was there really everyone in the first place lol) If you really know that when you go to the club, like if its a major club they WILL have camera people following you trying to take your photo. Then just take a NICE photo.. Don't try to show your ass (literally) show your draws, show off some horrible tattoo that you got in a spot to cover it up, flip the camera off ( I fucking hate that) do some shit that says "hi haters" who the hell hates you and why do WE care and WHY are YOU saying hi to them? You know I never understood that....

The point of what I'm really saying is that, just act like your momma is going to see the photo and act like you have some sense!

That is all.... :)

Akasha + Dark Phoenix's Men of Sexiness List!

2008-10-01T23:06:00.018-04:00

This is a list that we came up with a long time ago. We use this list to categorize men that we see in the street, yes its mostly based on looks but its for fun for the most part. *Note the descriptions are only a reference! WE are only using this photos for a reference point, that doesn't mean that's the guy DESCRIPTION!!! If you get offended then its your own problem.*

Diago- This is the top guy. He is financially stable, he has his own condo. His physically fit and mentally stable. His penis size is compliant, and he knows how to work it. He can be seen around EVERY ONE ( this includes friends and family) He is currently being transported by a private jet, and if he wasn’t in the mood to use the jet, he would be driving a 2009 Jaguar. He is DEFINITELY not embarrassed to take the subway with you.

Maxwell - This is the guy who is right under the top. He is financially stable, he is on the waiting list for the condo that he has already paid for. He is physically fit and mentally stable. His penis size is compliant and he isn’t afraid to use new positions, some times in different places. He can be seen around EVERYONE (this includes family and friends) He is currently driving a 2008 Mustang, but he is not afraid to ride the subway with you.

Boris Kudjoe - This is the guy who is right under Maxwell. He is financially stable but he’s renting an apartment in the city for now. He physically fit and mentally stable. His penis size is compliant, but he’s a little timid about new positions and or places. He is almost a little routine. He can be seen around EVERYONE (this includes family and friends especially since he is starting to become comfortable around them) He is currently driving a new 2008 BMW, but he would be embarrassed to ride on the subway with you.

Michael Ealy - He is right under Boris Kudjoe. He is becoming financially stable, and he just finishing some debt consolidations that he is paying off. He is becoming physically fit, and he needs to be showed a routine because a kiss on the neck and just sticking his 9" in is NOT sex. He can be seen around by only close friends. Needs a little more work to meet the parents. He is currently driving a LEASED 2007 Hummer, and we had the coaching conversation about getting a new car. He’s working on it….. Hopefully for his sake.

Vin Diesel - This guy is right under Michael Elay. He is becoming financially stable, he just needs more movie contracts. He is very physically fit and can talk you out YOUR DRAWS!!! He is currently packing 8", and he doesn’t know how to work it. He does the whole stick in you with a really hard force, and makes it a really uncomfortable sex experience. Unfortunately that’s all he can do….. He can be seen around only particular friends. Needs a little more work to meet the parents. He is currently driving a 2006 Mercedes Benz, but he takes care of it. For his own safety.

Xavier (guy from the seven train)- this guy is right under Vin Diesel. He is on the athletic side, and he’s almost physically fit. Mental stability is almost there, like his not afraid to have a conversation with himself. He is packing beautifully with 12", but it comes to oral sex, he lacks control and experience. He also need to learn how to wear draws. He is almost financially stable, but he needs to learn to use credit wisely. He can be seen around only particular friends because he still a little shy. He needs a lot more work to meet the parents. He is currently driving a 2006 Land Rover.

Chris Brown - this guy is right under Xavier. He is on the athletic side, and he’s almost physically fit. Because of this, he is very arrogant and cocky. He thinks is gods gift. He’s takes forever to get ready. He is packing 10 x 7". All he likes to do is make videos of him jerking off which is NOT CUTE!!! He definitely know how to kiss, especially after he got his teeth fixed. He has a idea on how to become financially stable in a few years. He can be seen around only your close friends…. Cause you know he sexy and young minded. He is currently being driven around and taking public transportation.

Tahj Mowry - He is right under Chris Brown. He knows how to save his money, but he has no clue on how to become financially stable. He is still in college. He is very active in sports so you know his body is on the way to becoming fit. He is mentally stable. He is packing 8.5", but sadly he is lacking experience. He needs to be taught everything. Living on the Hawaiian Island has not made him comfortable using the subway but he’s definitely getting a car soon. You can bring him around only particular friends. He’s on the young minded side of thinking, which can be worked on if your willing to spend that kind of time. This guy has just finished the Academy of becoming grown and sexy.

Getting Packages!

2008-10-01T18:48:00.006-04:00

So about last year, I got a new laptop for Christmas. I was never the less surprised because I asked and begged for one for the longest. (NO I'm not a kid lol but I couldn't afford one on my own) finally my mother got me one. Needless to say I was freaking happy. Mind you this is the end result. (Yes me being happy) My mom ordered the laptop from dell and the order processes and whatnot. They tell us that its going to ship from dell through DHL. (lord no)

Now I don't know if anyone ELSE has had issues with DHL but I know that around the holidays they really don't care WHO they hire vs the normal times. I don't know if anyone who reads this works for DHL but, hell I don't care, them fuckers are the worse!

FIRST they claimed that no one was home, which was a lie because I was off the few days that it was supposed to show up.
THEN they said that they left it with a neighbor. Now don't get me wrong, I kinda (VERY LITTLE) trust my neighbors around my apartment, only because I never really see the people right next to me, and the people across from me someone is usually home. Lucky for us, someone had to sign for the laptop because we had insurance on it. (needless to say by this point I'm so upset, because the ONE Christmas I get something I asked for and it "goes missing".
AFTER THAT we see on line that "someone" signed for it but we cant see who. It says one thing but we are like well the people around us didn't have it. So who has it....?

I will tell you who has it, the fucking driver stole it! Yes, he "signed" for it and took it because he figured we would get the money for it or whatever. HE DOES NOT KNOW ME OR MY MOTHER lol, so my mom is like "I don't understand how you cant find the driver when all this stuff is tracked and whatever and he has to come back to wherever you guys are. So how is that possible. " She threatened to stop the check on it and what not so they "amazingly" found him.

He finally comes back to my building like a few days later and is like "oh the people who had it opened it." Trust me when i said i was far from nice.

I WILL NEVER ORDER ANYTHING THAT HAS TO DEAL WITH DHL BECAUSE THEY ALL ARE A LITTLE ON THE SHADY SIDE!

If you work there then watch your pocket!

Tv Again!

2008-10-01T18:13:00.003-04:00

So, here I am sitting on my couch, watching TV. For those of you who know me, I channel surf a lot. As it would happen I come across the Tyra show. (lord yes again!) Today was the top model cycle 10 reunion. What I really want to know is who the hell still watches her show?? The girls on top model look like "pretty" girls you see in the street. There isn't a striking thing about any of them. I mean way back when, like a few years ago she had some girls who were like "wow" but now..... lol.

What I'm really ranting about with this is Tyra her self, she has the ability to turn ANY story that someone is telling in to a story about her. I mean goddamn it let the people tell THEIR story!!!! One girl was considered to be "plus size" and she was like "oh i was the only girl to come in there and say that I'm plus size and blah blah blah" when she really is just a tall size 8.. (Wow, really plus size!) Anyway, the girl was trying to tell her non-story when Tyra (miss me, me, me, I, I, I) chimes in and says "Well when i was younger back in the day when I was a model, when I was 16 modeling for the runway in Paris for whoever I was a size six!"

The poor "model" (I use the term loosely) was on the stage and she just trailed off in her story lol. I don't even think she really was saying anything to begin with but shit let the girl her her fake fuckertry out. lol.

There are other times when I've caught the Tyra show and the story has been about something that she (Tyra) knows that she has had nothing to do with and she will some how turn it in to a her, me, me, me, I, I, I, story. Yesterday for instance, the story was about these stupid ass girls who go to bars and kiss for free drinks. ( I feel sorry for them, well.... not really) There were two dumb girls on stage who say that they are straight and only kiss to get something out of the guys at the bar. They claimed that they didn't really see the harm in doing it. So what does miss me, me, me, I,I, I, do?? She goes on and says: "Well when I was your age, I would never think to do anything like that, I mean when you get older like I am, you find better things to do. When you get older like I am and you don't let go of what you do you get desperate, but I'm not!" Some times I wish I could go to the Tyra show and slap her with a dildo right in the face and say "The story isn't about you, for once in your life take a deep breath and tell the faerie in your head that says that the world revolves around you to shut the hell up!"

There were other people on that show, like one girl who was a lezzie and who was obviously pissed off. I couldn't blame her. Her point in the story was that because stupid girls like the two on stage who do that in bars and what not make it so that when she goes out with her girlfriend, guys expect her to do the same thing and don't take her seriously. I really felt sorry for the girl, like I totally got where she was coming from. The two girls on the stage didn't get it at all and then here came Tyra... She missed the WHOLE point like she does all the time.

She tried to reword what this girl was saying so that it would sound like she came up with it all by her self and FAILED.

Tyra some advice:

1. Top model is a sham, them girls are good for one maybe two days worth of work and that's it.
2. YOU WILL NEVER BE OPRAH, SO STOP TRYING TO BE HER.
3. NO ONE CARES ABOUT YOUR DAY TIME EMMY, SO LET IT GO!
4. NO, DAMN IT ITS NOT ALL ABOUT YOU.
5. SIT THE HELL DOWN ALREADY, WE DONE, YOU DONE, TAKE THE LACE FRONT OFF AND LET IT RELAX!!!

That is all!! :)